_lazarein

hi. another edit-less update for this coming 2026. for anyone who cares.
          	
          	i'm writing again. not bright eyes, though. something else, something new. something that puts me in way less pain to go writing on. like a rant shaped in dark supernatural-comedy form. something that excites me and brings me the ecstasy i've been missing from coming up with scenes in my head and putting them to words. something that sounds more pop-punk than the alternative rock-shoegaze of bright eyes.
          	
          	i haven't come up with a blurb yet. haven't even made a cover for it. just putting down words one by one, smiling and laughing to myself, and seeing where this goes.
          	
          	'til next time.
          	
          	;
          	rein

_lazarein

@AliceLeeWolff Ahhh! Discord! I’ll try to reinstall it once I’ve got better net connection when I’m back home. Thank you for the offer.
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_lazarein

@smidorii @thaliagrace- Thank you, friends! O.O <3
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AliceLeeWolff

Hi! I’m a fellow writer trying to get through the grind too. If you ever want to chat or support each other, I’d love to connect on Discord. Can we connect on Discord? heres my tag @aliced9971 add me
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_lazarein

hi. another edit-less update for this coming 2026. for anyone who cares.
          
          i'm writing again. not bright eyes, though. something else, something new. something that puts me in way less pain to go writing on. like a rant shaped in dark supernatural-comedy form. something that excites me and brings me the ecstasy i've been missing from coming up with scenes in my head and putting them to words. something that sounds more pop-punk than the alternative rock-shoegaze of bright eyes.
          
          i haven't come up with a blurb yet. haven't even made a cover for it. just putting down words one by one, smiling and laughing to myself, and seeing where this goes.
          
          'til next time.
          
          ;
          rein

_lazarein

@AliceLeeWolff Ahhh! Discord! I’ll try to reinstall it once I’ve got better net connection when I’m back home. Thank you for the offer.
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_lazarein

@smidorii @thaliagrace- Thank you, friends! O.O <3
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AliceLeeWolff

Hi! I’m a fellow writer trying to get through the grind too. If you ever want to chat or support each other, I’d love to connect on Discord. Can we connect on Discord? heres my tag @aliced9971 add me
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_lazarein

A little unedited update on things:
          
          Honestly, the past year has been difficult—so busy, so tired, so worn out to do what I love. What makes things worse are the voices in my head, voices from those I thought to be “friends”, questioning my sanity, telling me how stupid and neurotic I am to realize the “truth”. I know I was being lied to, but what sucks is I took them all in as my own truth. They’ve made me question my mind, made me question my self-worth (to the point they’ve resurrected my suicidal thoughts). They’ve made me question my skill and talent as a writer. (Do I even have the skill and talent to call myself one?)
          
          I’m not making promises now. But this year, I hope to recover, to fight past the voices, find the the time and energy to write again. It’s only through the written word I can truly be myself, and I want to be myself again. I want to love myself to acknowledge that I deserve better than those decades of abuse.
          
          So, thank you for your patience, and those little words of encouragement that keep me going for a while before the voices drown me again.
          
          I hope to heal and to write again. I really do.
          
          - rein

TAJoseph

@_lazarein You're welcome! I'm glad we connected through Wattpad. I believe in you loads, and I would love for you to conquer the negative thoughts. I'm truly praying that things improve for you. :) <3
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_lazarein

@falling-into-you Ashtyn, we don’t really talk often, but thank you so much for this. I hope your health and job are kind to you this year, and for the years that follow. And that’s definitely helpful advice (not just to me, but to Ava, too). (I’m rooting for her!) Again, thank you! ♥️
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falling-into-you

I’m so sad to hear that you’ve been going through all of this. 2023 was a rough one for me too—not in the same ways as yours, but it definitely affected my motivation and confidence with writing so I feel where you’re coming from there. I know I’m not up to date on your books, but I enjoy seeing your updates on here and Goodreads and would miss you if you weren’t around! There will never be a book that pleases anyone, but at the end of the day the most important person you can write for is yourself. I hope you’re able to write for your own happiness this year and not anyone else’s. Please know that you are so talented and I’m around on here and Instagram and Goodreads if you ever want to talk ❤️
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TAJoseph

Hello! Just checking in to say, I hope you're well! :) <3

TAJoseph

@_lazarein Thank you so much! I'm so happy we connected through Wattpad. Your feedback has greatly encouraged me. I hope the same for you, whichever path you choose to take with your writing. You are incredibly kind and gracious. God bless you, lazarein. ❤
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_lazarein

@TAJoseph You’re an incredible writer, Tracey. And I’m so looking forward to more of Far from Whimsy. I hope in time you do get back on your feet and do what fulfills you. Your creative mind and sensitivity to words are a gift. ♥️
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TAJoseph

@_lazarein Hi there! Glad to hear that you're doing better. Wow, your job sounds quite fulfilling. I understand why you're exhausted.  As for me, I'm doing fine. Same old same old. But just struggling to motivate myself to write. Thank you. I hope the times are kind to you as well. Take care! <3
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