I am a teen.
I have a messy room. I spend most of my time online. I have private things on my phone. I go to bed late & I am crazy about one person.

I used to not wear make-up.
I used to not straighten my hair.
I used to not care what anyone thought of me.
I used to not care if I had a boyfriend.
I used to think boys were gross.
I used to think there was no such thing as "popularity."
I used to go weeks without crying.
I used to think everyone was my best friend.
I used to love to go to school.
I used to be happy all the time.
What happened?

Party hard; Make mistakes; laugh endlessy; do things that you are afraid to do. after all, your only young once.
Sometimes you need to distance yourself from people. If they care, they'll notice, if they don't you know where to stand.

im going through that phase again where i get so sad about the fact that im not in a fictional world and i don't actually get to meet any of my favourite characters. they're all made up, you know? sometimes you watch tv shows or read books and they feel so real and you're consumed into this world but then reality sets in and you realize that you're not with them and none of it matters. you're kind of alone in this plain old world. this is always such a weird sad phase and i sound so childish but i am an ordinary human being which breaks my heart. we don't have powers and all we do is go to school and work and we don't have to fight crazy villains or anything. i hope in an afterlife maybe we reincarnate into worlds we wished to live in and my head hurts i really don't want to live in this world right now but that's okay because there's weird magic in this world like those really nice evenings with crazy sunsets