_maiawrites

Happy New Year! ✨️

_maiawrites

i am indeed loved. i feel blessed to be loved. whenever i do something that makes people really happy, whenever i do something they ask me to do, whenever i do something that surpass their expectations or at least meets them, i am really loved. everybody loves me in a certain way when i do something for them. when i prove the worth of my existence to them. everybody loves me when i happily and perfectly carry the bundle of their expectations and the things they want me to do. but weirdly enough, nobody ever loves me when i am being me. when i do things that makes my heart happy. when i am just being silly, stupid and loud me. when i make mistakes or when i fall down because i am too exhausted, i'm not loved.
          
          i am indeed loved when i am what people expect me to be but i am very unlovable when i am just being me. 
          
          -//t.k.

Feather_and_Fable

@aurphicc This is so beautiful and true that it hurts </3
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fleurdelis-

@aurphicc of course, lean only on those you trust. and it’s fine if you don’t have a lot of those right now because at the end of the day you’ve got to put yourself in a position where you feel at peace. you’ll find these people, we all have these relations that help us when we feel our lowest or highest.
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_maiawrites

@fleurdelis- where do i find the people who love me for who i am? i love myself. but you see, there are so many people on the earth, so many relations, if we have to do everything by ourselves, then why were these relations even created? isn't it okay to lean on other, sometimes?
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