little_demon

You write painfully and beautifully!!

Invisible walls, I build around
          A fortress to protect, a heart that's profound
          But in the silence, I'm lost and alone
          A stranger in a crowd, where no one calls me home
          
          My brain, a maze, of twists and turns
          A puzzle that's puzzling, where the pieces burn
          I try to explain, but words fall short
          A language barrier, that leaves me distraught
          
          I see the hurt, in the eyes of those I love
          A reflection of the pain, that I'm sent from above
          Guilt and shame, they whisper my name
          A chorus of self-blame, that's hard to reclaim
          
          But what they don't see, is the war that I fight
          A battle to control, the demons that ignite
          The flames that fuel, the anxiety and fear
          A constant companion, that's always near
          
          I'm not trying to hurt, I'm just trying to cope
          A survival mechanism, that's my heart's only hope
          I may not fit, in your perfectly planned space
          But in my brokenness, I'm finding my own pace.
          
          I'm tired, so tired, of the fight
          Of waking up each morning, without a spark of light
          The weight of the world, it crushes me down
          A never-ending cycle, of spinning round and round
          
          My body's weak, my mind's a mess
          I'm lost in the darkness, with no way to express
          The emotions that swirl, like a stormy sea
          Drowning me in despair, and hopelessness, it seems
          
          When darkness falls, and hope seems lost
          And the weight of the world, is all that's the cost
          I remind myself, that I've survived before
          That I've walked through the fire, and made it to other shore

Trapped in this body, I roam
          A prisoner of pain, I call home
          Each step a struggle, each breath a test
          My health, a burden, I must confess
          
          Lost in a haze, of doctor's appointments
          And medication, that brings little joy
          I search for a glimpse, of my former self
          But it's hard to find, when my body's wealth
          
          Is depleted, drained, and worn so thin
          Leaving me feeling, lost and stuck within
          A cycle of suffering, that's hard to break
          A never-ending loop, that my heart would ache
          
          I worked hard to climb, the corporate ladder high
          But chronic pain and fatigue, made me wonder why
          I struggled to keep up, as my body gave way
          And my dreams of success, began to fade away
          
          The doctor's words, cut deep like a knife
          "Your health is at risk, it's time to re-evaluate life"
          I felt my world crumbling, as I let go of the reins
          And watched my career, slip away like autumn's leaves in vain
          
          I mourn the loss, of the person I used to be
          The one who was driven, and full of energy
          But now I'm left, to pick up the pieces of me
          And find a new path, that's not defined by my career's legacy
          
          It's hard to let go, of the life I once knew
          But I'm learning to adapt, and find new things to pursue
          A new sense of purpose, that's not tied to my job
          A new way of living, that's focused on my well-being, not just a sob.
          
          But still I hold on, to hope's thin thread
          And pray for a dawn, where my body's freed
          From this cage of pain, that binds me so tight
          And I can rise again, into the warm sunlight.

Hlo kiki-ahh
          How r you my champ? I hope u are doing well momma......I miss you soo my my darling!! It's been ages since we had a good talk (⁠╥⁠﹏⁠╥⁠) but my baby just remembered you're not alone I am and will always be with u dearest (⁠づ⁠｡⁠◕⁠‿⁠‿⁠◕⁠｡⁠)⁠づ
          Stay safe and take care.....I love you lots Kiki muahhhhhhhhh ♡⁠˖⁠꒰⁠ᵕ⁠༚⁠ᵕ⁠⑅⁠꒱

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          I hope you're sleeping well and have the loveliest dream 
          I love you :) 
          
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          ( ↑ I wanted to make a heart, it didn't work ) 

I see your bio (⁠^⁠^⁠)

Hi to my dearest person here .❤️
          You make me feel wanted. You make me feel happy and loved..I wanted to tell you that iam blessed with a baby boy right now..☺️
          
          Got busy with family stuff. I love youuu my girl❤️I want you to know that your messages always make me smile and happy ❤️❤️❤️
          Lots of love to you..

I miss you 
          Good night 
          I love you 
          ♡