I'm always used to be an in need friend to others but when I need one, there's none of them here. It's just me and my family. And that's the reason why I'm being an introvert person compared to before with strangers. Only few closest friends that I have and family who are really known me for who I am. Not trying to act like I'm the only best person who make friends with other best person only. I do look forward of what people would think about me when my awkward action to approach them more. That's why I found that I have different perceptions from the one who used to close to me and vice versa. Trust me, I want to make friends with tonnes of people but my trauma towards people whom like to take advantages on others or just friends for benefits turn me to a new more introvert person. All I want to say is, I'm sorry friends if there is anything I did without my concern that might hurt you. Wish that our relationship will stay till jannah insyallah. And I want you to know that I love all of my friends though I know there are some of you never wanted to be friend with me.