Kika <3

I'm just a girl (listening to old bands late at night while on pinterest)

I thought it was getting into my head,
          I actually thought I was the crazy one.
          I tried believing all you've said,
          Trusting you, I gave you my all, undone.
          
          All my hope was yours to take,
          Because for once, I thought it was it.
          For once, I wasn't lost in the ache.
          For once, I knew I would never quit.
          
          Though, you quit, didn't you?
          Left me with all this love to pour.
          And funny, you are still all I view,
          You are still the one I adore.
          
          You are my first thought in the morning,
          The last one when I go to bed.
          And maybe, maybe even all of those in between.
          You linger there, inside my head.
          
          You are my nothing
          When people ask me what I'm thinking about.
          And I'm just nothing...
          Without a doubt.
          
          Nothing without you ~ Kika 

Ah so she could in fact treat me the way I wanted she just didn't want to? I was the problem, I get it...

Was it casual when you said you could see my face when you struggle to do so with others?

OMG STAY TUNED CAUSE ILL SHOW YOU A POEM I MADE DURING DINNER IN MY HEAD

Just saw a damn tik tok saying "we wanted Romanogers not Splatasha Jumpanoff" 
          Ouch that hurts

Hum I smile a little too widely at her texts and she only sees me as her old friend, help...

Condolences to my neighbours' ears who just heard me screaming 'Casual' by Chappell Roan

YOU TALKED TO HER WHEN WE WERE TOGETHER
          LOVED YOU AT YOUR WORSE
          BUT THAT DIDNT MATTER
          IT TOOK YOU TWO WEEKS
          TO GO OFF AND DATE HER
          GUESS YOU DIDNT CHEAT
          BUT YOUR STILL A TRAITOR
          (i need to hear this song live asap)

"I'd go back in time and change it, but I can't
          So if the chain is on your door, I understand"