I live a peaceful and quiet life .
"Sometimes I feel life is too complicated and I overwhelming. I believe myself to be too lazy to live because I have a cycle. I get to the point where I cry and tell God I am ready to go, but then I sober up and get deadly afraid of death. I sometimes truly question and dismiss the idea of God not being real. I want to completely throw myself into the idea that he is real, but it's hard to believe and have faith. Only when I'm in distress or on a verge of breaking to actually consider him. Which I know makes me a horrible person. I am also deadly afraid  of the future I hate thinking about but I have to because my family will soon depend on me and that scares me to my very core.The point is I'm tired and haven't even reached my prime yet but it's okay. I continue to try to be happy and cry through the moments."
-unknown
Thank you to whoever's wrote this.