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does anyone still care ?
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i pray ill be yellow belt tomorrow
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iM oKaY
no iM nOt oKay
I HATE MYSELF SO MUCH
i could let the negativity in and just kill myself
but no
im still fighting and i sucks
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i hate myself i screw everything up
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kill me now
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i really thought i was so close to moving on
i thought the feelings have left
i really thought i would not care
but my heart
it skipped a beat
the butterflies came back
but you don’t have to feel the same.
i know you don’t.
you never will.
i wasn't enough.
i never will be.
i’m nothing special anyways!
everyone leaves me.
i give everything but it will never be enough.
a part of me wants to hate you but i can’t.
and i hate it.
i hate myself so much.
for loving you
for even trying.
i wish i never confessed.
“ you seem just fine almost better on your own but i don’t blame you cause hearts never break the same “
- breaking down day6
that song
that line
its how i feel.
but do you care?
of course not.
i’m nothing to you.
and i’m never gonna be anything to you.
i want to give up.
should i just give up trying to fix our friendship we lost?
because i fell in love with you.
i want to give up.
but i don’t want to lose you.
i don’t know what to do anymore.
i love you.
i wish i don’t.
and i’m sorry.
for loving you.
ashnasalman
@TimothyTim8 i cried so much after reading this .. U portrayed my feelings here really .. It feels like someone painted a canvas of my feelings .. Tysm
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lol
i thought i was close to moving on
i guess u believed i moved on though
but hey thats good
its better than losing u as my friend
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i wonder if anyone reads this
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*deep exhale*
she doesn't love me anymore but i honestly can’t blame her :)
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monthsary tomorrow.
wow we aren't even together anymore, i wanna forget tomorrow is even special.
it’s probably like every day.
sad, tiring and depressing.
same thing.
each day.