Leaving home feels like being torn apart piece by piece. Every time I pack my bags and head back to college, it’s as if a wave of homesickness crashes over me and begins to slowly eat away at my heart. I’ve never regretted a decision as deeply as choosing a college so far from home. I don’t know how others manage to cope with this ache but for me, it feels like someone is squeezing my heart with a grip so cruel, it leaves me breathless. I’ve done nothing today but cry, consumed by the weight of missing everything—my parents, my little brother, the comfort of my home and the warmth of my family. Even after spending two years away, this time the feeling has hit harder than ever. It has overpowered me completely, leaving me numb. I don’t know how to get through it anymore. I don’t know how to pretend it’s fine when it’s not.
Just wanted to let out my emotions…