xiaojae

im obsessing over kpop demon hunters
          
          help—

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my hsr fanfic readers probably got spoiled in chapter 1 title cuz i accidentally published it T^T(i already unpublished it so idk if someone managed to see it)

i have banned myself from writing music centric fanfics cuz the songs that will be used for it will most likely come from my depressed mess of a playlist m
          
          if i tried to fix it i know im gonna go back to the dark depressing music(the meaning of the music is all about depression but the music and all its entirety looks like its not cuz of how upbeat the beat is)

motivation to write and overthinking is a bad convo cuz ur gonna be motivated to write but then u overthink so u dont write so minutes or hours later and u return only to repeat the cycle and in the end u dont make progress 

i am sooo very happy cuz i have a reason not to pull saber AND i can actually be able to get a character e6s5 without waiting for rerun(i just need the jades ehe)

i think its the hype getting to me or im just lazy but i just straight up put on a project for my hsr fanfic just so that i can like not write it with a reason besides procrastination and its cuz im drawing smth for it(said drawing have not been started nor did i make any progress aka im procrastinating)

i regret to inform that im losing my mind over the 33550336 cycles that phainon went through and tyna understand the lore about it despite not watching the animations

when im writing a fanfic with full on song chapter names that need to fit in with the chapter but all the songs in my playlist either talks about abuse, trauma, manipulation, depression and all that with only 3 or 4 of them talking about positive-ish things(help—)

when the game decided to fck with you and made you lose ur 50/50 twice