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“All my life I’ve been good but now I’m thinking ‘what the hell..”
          	Havent heard this in sooo long

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Can’t believe I’ve reached the point of mirroring the digitsss. Will drop off the calendar next time lol. Craaazy. I’m still not adept at navigating this life, not even close. A lot times I feel a sense of unexpected overwhelm wash over me. I’m always filled with a lot anxiety and doubt but each year there’s something new that I’ve done worth celebrating and that pushes me forward most days. My lifelong dream of writing novels is not just something I’ve just written on paper anymore and that will forever be awesome. Though some days I wonder if I have the ability to fulfill the great vision of my ideas I still end up taking that one step forward and I hope I continue to do so til I see the finished product and I’ve proved to myself that I’ve actually done it. There’s so much I want to see come to fruition. Here’s to all those dreams, to all those baby steps, to trying to find more peace.

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First love was 4G, etch-a-sketch, Italian grade authenticity 
           
          Was classic emoticons and character limits,
          Was a feverish flitting of fingers on keyboards, flirting clicks and fluttering risks,
          Was teenage girl toe curling over bolded smirks and grins between asterisks,
          Was swiping right to hear his “I missed you” soft in San Serif and introvert blue,
          Was role playing between the lines and occasional threesomes with tech support,
          Was a love for literature and sending hand-picked poetry like warm, waking breakfast in bed,
          Was shared bucket lists and parallel, midnight radio raves,
          Was new age fluency sampled with old-fashioned friends to lovers,
          Was a 2 hour and 2 years ahead, 12 a.m. birthday stay up adolescence,
          Was falling into companied slumber cradling a “sleep well” today, 2:00 am.
          Was a secret with a hidden album and six digit passcode, 
          Was profoundly more than just the sequence of bits to pixels projected on tempered glass.

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I really love the handful of poetry I worked on this year. I hope I’ll write a handful more this next year. There’s a lot of things I have yet figured out how to put in words like this. I’m proud of the improvements I’ve made in this art form though I don’t write as much poetry these days.
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“The memories always fall short of what we could have been…The more that I love the less that I feel. The times that I jumped never were real. They say that all scars heal but I know maybe I won’t. But the waves won’t break my boat…”  Top five

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“I confuse people. i have a happy personality and a sad soul. i'm bold but shy. i love deeply but sometimes i feel heartless. i'm healing and hurting at the same time. i'm dedicated to growth, but i self sabotage.”