a-taekookbabe

I have come to the very scientific conclusion that I am only fully alive when I am hyperfixating.
          	
          	Like, yes, I exist otherwise. I breathe. I attend life. I reply “okay” to messages. But when I’m hyperfixated? Oh, that’s when the soul clocks in. That’s when my brain lights up like a city at night and suddenly everything has texture.
          	
          	This is usually accompanied by: – one song on an unhealthy loop
          	– writing at hours meant for sleeping
          	– a fictional person / idea/ story living rent free in my head
          	– me thinking “I have never felt emotions like this before” (I have. Many times.)
          	
          	Writing becomes oxygen. Music becomes a personality trait. My thoughts stop tripping over each other and instead sprint in the same direction like they’re late for something important.
          	
          	This is the version of me that feels sharp, dramatic, intense.... in a hot way. The overthinking finally becomes useful. The emotions stop piling up and start turning into sentences. I’m not bored. I’m not numb. I’m consumed. And honestly? I thrive like that.
          	
          	And when the hyperfixation ends, it’s tragic. The world goes from HD to 480p. Suddenly I’m like “Why am I a human? Why is time linear? Why am I not obsessed with anything right now?” But nothing is wrong, this is just the comedown after feeling everything.
          	
          	I don’t want peace. I want immersion.
          	I don’t want calm. I want intensity.
          	I don’t want to skim life. I want to fall into it headfirst.
          	
          	This is how I love things. This is how I survive my own brain.
          	If that sounds like a lot, yeah. It is. And it’s also me.

a-taekookbabe

@a-taekookbabe i wrote this and thought of sharing this here❤️‍
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jeikey_2002

Heyyy, i just wanna say how grateful i am for your work. Its been a while since i've read such a great fanfiction and i feel like its exactly what i need at the moment. And it got me out of reader's block...? I couldnt even look at books for weeks and i read all 51 chapters in two days, even sacrificing my sleep for it. And i take my sleep very seriously. 
          I especially love the way Jungkook kinda treats Taehyung as art...? Im a huge art lover and this all painting thing added so much depth to their relationship and honestly made me so so happy.
          And damn, based on your author's notes you seem so cool! And just genuinely a fun person to be around. I hope you'll find the enjoyment in writing again, but no pressure. Do it for yourself, not for anyone else. And like Yoongi said in a documentary - If a piece isn't coming together, just leave it. Don't try to finish anything yourself, sacrificing your peace of mind. There's a great book by Amie McNee "We Need Your Art". I highly recommend it for every artist, there are so many tips on how to just.. exist as an artist in this capitalistic world, focused on profit.
          Anyway, sorry if it turned out chaotic, i am not even a half as good writer as you, but i wish you all the best. 
          Hope you have a great day

a-taekookbabe

@jeikey_2002 Jimin in long hair is a very specific exception but ykw? Same  And knowing Jungkook, the tattoo idea is unfortunately a little too believable hehe
            
            I do! It's a_taekookbabe Though fair warning, it's significantly less cool than my author's notes make it sound  I'm also not very active there at the moment. I keep telling myself I'll make reels and promote the book properly, but then real life responsibilities show up and ruin my plans
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jeikey_2002

@a-taekookbabe ah and btw do you have any social media i can follow?
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jeikey_2002

@a-taekookbabe you have no idea how big my smile was when i was reading your messege. You're so so sweet, thank you so much. 
            And the last chapter was incredibly cute, my sapphic heart loved it
            But i gotta confess smth.. if someone would do that looking scene with me id throw them in the ocean... well unless its like idk, Jimin in long hair, then maybe..
            Anyway i cant wait to see what happens next, i do want Jungkook to tattoo smth about Taehyung, i feel that would match his level of obssesion...
            I wish you all the best
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annievibes

hey, I wanted to let you know how good BBS is and I absolutely love your ideas over the story and how you’ve written it overall. the characters are so strong that I come back to them again and can’t wait to read more of them. 
          
          I’m patiently waiting for an update on these babies so hopefully we’ll get it sooner. have a good one!

annievibes

@a-taekookbabe hope to see them sooner cause the recent chapter was such a slow burn
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a-taekookbabe

@annievibes This genuinely made me smile so hard Thank you for loving these babies with me
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Vante3700

Hi author when will the next update come like you end the last chapter there I start making the next scene in my mind  but like always love the book it is excellent some scenes i didn't understand but I love reading it

a-taekookbabe

@Vante3700 hey, i posted a new chapter today!! i’m really glad you’re enjoying it!!!
            if you ever feel like it, feel free to tell me which parts felt confusing but  no pressure at all. some things are meant to be unclear right now , but i still like knowing what readers feel
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a-taekookbabe

I have come to the very scientific conclusion that I am only fully alive when I am hyperfixating.
          
          Like, yes, I exist otherwise. I breathe. I attend life. I reply “okay” to messages. But when I’m hyperfixated? Oh, that’s when the soul clocks in. That’s when my brain lights up like a city at night and suddenly everything has texture.
          
          This is usually accompanied by: – one song on an unhealthy loop
          – writing at hours meant for sleeping
          – a fictional person / idea/ story living rent free in my head
          – me thinking “I have never felt emotions like this before” (I have. Many times.)
          
          Writing becomes oxygen. Music becomes a personality trait. My thoughts stop tripping over each other and instead sprint in the same direction like they’re late for something important.
          
          This is the version of me that feels sharp, dramatic, intense.... in a hot way. The overthinking finally becomes useful. The emotions stop piling up and start turning into sentences. I’m not bored. I’m not numb. I’m consumed. And honestly? I thrive like that.
          
          And when the hyperfixation ends, it’s tragic. The world goes from HD to 480p. Suddenly I’m like “Why am I a human? Why is time linear? Why am I not obsessed with anything right now?” But nothing is wrong, this is just the comedown after feeling everything.
          
          I don’t want peace. I want immersion.
          I don’t want calm. I want intensity.
          I don’t want to skim life. I want to fall into it headfirst.
          
          This is how I love things. This is how I survive my own brain.
          If that sounds like a lot, yeah. It is. And it’s also me.

a-taekookbabe

@a-taekookbabe i wrote this and thought of sharing this here❤️‍
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kimchi_believer19930

Dear author what's your insta handle?

kimchi_believer19930

@kimchi_believer19930 okay ✨
            Now I'm your new follower
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a-taekookbabe

@kimchi_believer19930 i just made a new account for this story  a_taekookbabe
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