comfort crowd

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@a7_fandom that's so rough, I'm sorry, also again sorry for timing I don't log into this account very much  it seems like it just wouldn't be worth it, sometimes people need space and they don't have an explanation or they got stuff going on, not really an excuse to be rude, but idk, I would say if she wants space that bad then let her. 

@netflixfleur she also made some really rude comments about someone I’m very close with, which made me upset. I felt bad because he was dragged into all of it, and now people he used to be friends with aren’t talking to him either. And I’ve gotten over it, mostly because she’s just being really immature about the situation, when it was never actually a big deal in the first place. She told me to be honest with her and when I was she told me I was insecure, and I shouldn’t project my feelings onto other people. And I ended up writing out a nine paragraph letter about everything she’s ever done that’s upset me or made me feel bad but I never sent it to her, because I didn’t want to cause anymore problems.

@netflixfleur no it’s okay! Don’t worry about it. And from my understanding it was more of a miscommunication. We were drifting anyways but she pretty much just told me there’s no point in trying if neither of us are going to put in any effort. She hasn’t spoken to me in weeks and I’ve tried reaching out but she just doesn’t want anything to do with me.

Like the last time I was completely targeted was a game we played last Monday. And I’m talking ball after ball and I got hit in the face twice. AND THEY WEREN'T EVEN THAT GOOD! They just had one really good hitter. And the team were playing Tuesday is pretty much matched with us so those games are always fun.

Which isn’t new I guess. Because I’m the setter and I have the get the second ball it’s throwing us out of system, so we do the same thing. But sometimes it is just TOO much

It’s also just bad because volleyball is my first priority. I haven’t done my homework in weeks and I have no idea how my grades are right now. I haven’t even had time to start my college essay, nevermind the application process. But my whole schedule revolves around when I have practices and when I have games and I am so sick of it. And literally so is everybody else.

I love playing and I love volleyball and my team but I am so done. We won the last game we played so now we’re going to continue playing through the tournament in November. I am just so mentally and physically tired.

I said I wasn’t going to be upset about it but I AM!! And we are playing our school’s rivals and their gym is like a sauna. Not fun.

And the fact that I went to his CONCERT and had probably the BEST experience makes it worse in my opinion.

And we WON!!!

I am SO nervous