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וְשָׁבוּ בָנִים לִגְבוּלָם.
          	
          	Welcome home Hadar. R.I.P

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So we tried fostering a dog, and she had such a bad anxiety we had to return her because she was putting herself in danger and tried running away. After that I contacted them (three days into her being at our home) and requested to bring her back to make sure she's safe (she has good living conditions, she wasn't going back to a tiny cage, or I would never let her go back), and I wanted to make it a gradual process where I go a few times a week and get her trust before bringing her home so she'd have an easier time. She was adopted the next day. I am happy for her, but I'm afraid because I know her, I know she tried running away a few times and succeeded in another house she was in, and I know that she won't have an easy time. I want it to be her forever home on the one hand because of course she deserves it, but I also keep thinking that they might give her back any day, and then I'd have a chance to really get her to be my baby, but then- I keep thinking how selfish it is. But I've been thinking about her for two months, I've lost all hope when she was adopted- and then one sunny day she comes back. And we have five days of bliss (well, it was difficult, but she was there), and then she goes back, and I think- I still have a chance to make her happy someday. And now, not anymore. I hope not. But then again, I hope I might still have it. I truly love this dog. She's the most beautiful dog I've seen, aside from my parents' dog.

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@SweetnSourMushu two problems: she is a beauty and she's been taken to get another foster family in hopes to be adopted 
            Second- she is big. Like, really big. Like my height when she stands up on two feet, and about 60 cm high without standing up. My boyfriend says that although he loves her he cannot deal with her in the house. period. So... idk. I know she'll be happy. There's a five years old Pitbull that has cancer, the gentlest soul alive, and was just attacked last week from the same place. My boyfriend liked him a lot when we first met him. He's the bestest boy, and I know the first dog will find a house at some point, but I want Zeus, the pitbull, to have a safe place to call his home before dying. He's in a foster home that's taking care of him for months now, but still, I want him to have a home, so I might start working on that. He's also smaller than Esther (the first dog). But if it was up to me all dogs ever were in my house
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@SweetnSourMushu she was brought back. My friend that works there just texted me "she's coming back, sorry to sadden you" :( 
            She did not find her forever home. Maybe I'm right, and I'm her forever home
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SweetnSourMushu

@aIive_ Thats really sweet, I have a dog like that his name is Chief. When I tell you that dog is a big baby I mean it. It's really hard to admit when you can't take care of a pet that you love. You might have given her enough love that she will trust the next person thanks to you. Keep you're head up knowing you helped her find her forever home. Ps sorry for the random reply this really reminds me of my own struggles with a dog.
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As written by Bipin Joshi's (may he rest in peace) parents:
          
          With immense pain, we received the news of the worst of all.
          
          Our dear son, Bipin — brother and soulmate to our daughter Pushpa — was murdered in Hamas captivity. The ground was pulled out from under our feet. It is hard to put into words the void left without him, a void that opened two years ago and has deepened into an immense abyss. Bipin left us full of excitement, setting out for a year of study in Israel. We never imagined that the hug we gave him then would be our last.
          Today we can say it loud and clear: Bipin, you are a hero!
          We were so afraid that they would know you were a hero, that they would harm you — we only prayed you would survive,” they write. “Before you were taken, you managed to send a message to your cousin, asking him to be strong and always look toward the future. It is hard to imagine a future without you, Bipin. Every flower in the garden we planted for you will remind us of you — every orchard, every field. You are part of the landscape of Nepal, and now also part of the landscape of the Land of Israel.
          
          I know many people hate those who support Israel. Condemn Israel and Jewish people all around the world. But remember Joshi, who risked his life to protect his friends. Who was held captive and seen alive a month after October 7th. Remember him when you say that rápe and mǔrder and burning houses and shooting party goers is fine because it's in the name of freedom. Joshi hasn't been a part of the "occupation". And if god forbid you were there- they'd hurt you too. Support the suffering of the citizens in Gaza if you'd like, but never, ever- dare to defend October 7th. Even if you hate Jewish people and Israel. Because it's bigger than that. Joshi hasn't done anything wrong. I hope he rests in peace now that his body has been returned. I hope his family get to heal. I'm sorry Joshi, you weren't returned earlier. We mourn you.

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Home at last ️

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@__The__Universe__ you said it. 
            May the fallen now return to a respectful burial. 
            Let those two god awful years be over soon, and let all those who suffered, fallen soldiers, those who were in the Nova, those who were in their home- let them and all those that care for them get to heal now. Let no other family join that kind of grief.
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__The__Universe__

this message may be offensive 
@aIive_ about fucking time
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aIive_

Welcome back home, we've missed you, even though we have never met before.
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My niece: your mascara is smudged up
          Me: I'm not wearing any
          Her: oh. Well your lipstick is then.
          Me: I'm not wearing it either. I'm not wearing any makeup usually, today's no difference 
          Her: you're not wearing any makeup?!! That explains why your lips look a bit chapped. But just a bit
          Me: are you just looking for something wrong with my face??

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Me writing something I actually enjoy and like: yes, everyone will be so happy to see this update, for sure!
          Yall: oh look here is a badly written, lacking in plot and character building, not funny, not smart, not special that the author wrote when she was 15! Let's read vote and comment on it for all eternity!!

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@Semi-Okay-Libero dude thank you for getting it! I am flabbergasted whenever I see a new vote/comment on a book I barely remember writing because I was still in high school. It's been well over a decade guys. Let it die, how yall keep finding it? My frontal lobe wasn't developed, and my whole mind was a simplistic one sided lane that could only go to a stupid direction. Now it's a two sided lane that can only go stupid. :)
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@aIive_ I felt this in my soul. Like I know it's badly written. It's from when I STARTED WRITING OF COURSE ITS GONNA BE BAD!!
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I just got my course list to my MA, and I'm really trying to wrap my head around my thesis to start the year prepared. 
          I aint there.
          
          so... I know I said I'm back to updating, but- I am apparently not able to fulfill this promise at the moment. Hopefully, I will have some time between getting ready to the start of classes, and then will actually update