Sometime is normal that life have ups and downs , you don’t have to force yourself to do what other people want you to do to keep them happy. You don’t have to force yourself to live in other person expectation. You just need to be yourself , go do things that makes you happy , do things that makes you comfortable. This is your life , don’t let anybody take control of it and don’t let anyone take away the thing you find joy in your life. Be yourself.