helloo, i apologize for somewhat disappearing. for those wondering about the book, it isn't deleted, i still have it. i did take it down though. firstly i was never updating, and never was motivated to update. i had a lot to do, and some personal things took a toll on me as well. second, i dont really feel comfortable with the book being up? i had a few friends find the book and it made me scared and uncomfortable and i just didn't want to have it up. if you guys really want ill republish it, but dont expect an update anytime soon. im incredibly sorry, but thank you for all the support and concerns, and i hope you all are having a wonderful and healthy and happy life right now! <3