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And ofc when I'm supposed to be sleeping well, that's also when I overthink the best! Wow just wow! AM I CRAZY?? BUT I WROTE SOMETHING
          Yeah, another poem TT
          (Idk if it will make sense to everyone tho)
          
          The boy I met at nineteen
          He was all I ever wanted
          And I was the happiest I'd ever been
          Spotless image, people would say
          He's a bit shy, but a real nice guy
          He glowed like the sun itself
          But his heart was put up high on a shelf
          He must not be single, right?
          How could it be? Such a cute guy
          But no girl in sight?
          He was really a unique piece
          Prioritised only his inner peace
          His voice was beautiful
          And he might act like a fool
          But he stood really tall
          Eyes sharp, that's all!
          Isn't he just so cool?
          But he was just like me!
          He loved too soon, too much
          'You're so amazing, I miss you!
          Oh, did you have lunch?'
          But he was such a gentleman
          My shoelaces are undone
          He could tell, but it was just a glance
          In this generation!?
          Girl, not a chance!
          You two make such a cute couple
          My friends would say with a laugh
          'Oh really?' And I would turn around
          But boy, was it tough to grasp!
          His arms were warm, tucked me in a fold
          His fingers were gentle, yet a little cold
          God, is there no way out?
          Can't he be the one?
          But he was just a flash of light
          Not a story I could easily write
          But really, that's all this was about!

Qotd: what pisses you off the most? Like right off the bat?
          
          I'll go first! When I'm saying the truth, very casually and genuinely too, and someone says, no way! You're lying! 
          
          BRUH!?!? I'M NOT?! I just hate it when they just assume I'm not being honest just because in that situation most people won't be.
          
          Like for example,
          Someone: isn't this weird? It shows that you're feeling hot. Aren't you?
          Me: no, not really... I'm not
          Someone: stop lying. You're definitely feeling hot
          My brain: MF- I'M NOT.
          
          or...
          Someone: you were just thinking of something bad right?
          Me: no I wasn't 
          Someone: that can't be! I just know you were!
          My brain: HOW COME YOU KNOW MY BRAIN?!?! HOW COME YOU JUST KNOW HUHHH?!?! WHAT ARE YOU? GOD?
          
          idk why it just pisses me tf off when people assume it just because they think others do it, I must be doing it too.
          NO I'M NOT.
          I mean in some situations it's fine, but sometimes it just.. idk maybe my mood swings
          
          UGH IDEK WHAT THIS WAS ABOUT LMFAO

THIS IS CRAZY BUT is it only me? ALL OF THEM LITERALLY ALL OF THEM just leave their drinks behind and run off? In the series and movies, when in the cafe or restaurant their drinks are full, they haven't even touched it and then just leave it there once smtg comes up?!?! Is it... normal?
          Or am I just too middle class for this? NAAH no way right? It's still ridiculous
          I wouldn't wanna waste food/drinks like that either 
          It seriously always catches my attention and it's weird ☠️

Hieeeee

Heeeyyyy long time no talk

As if the cdramas weren't enough we have this in real life now T-T 
          
          https://youtube.com/shorts/rMjY5POQEdo?si=i9CsJfwWPl1U5dsO
          
          happy for the couple though <33

Rest in peace, my granny, she got hit by a bazooka

Hey sugar didi.. How are you??...  I don't if you remember me.. Author Anu... Miss your *sugar spam* message on my old author ac.. 

:(
          I attended a wedding today, they are one of our relatives. And I saw some of my cousin brothers after SO long. And it just... made me kinda sad and nostalgic. We're not close anymore.
          I still remember how we visited them one summer and we used to play together, joke around and tease each other, laugh together, tell each other scary stories and everything... it was so fun. But it was long ago, at that time I was still in school. We were mere teens. We didn't have much contact after that... and now that it's been years, everything is changed. Ofc it is. They're grown up into adults, ofc I am too and it feels weird. We were just kids before and now they're all big and tall I almost got intimidated lmfao it's a weird feeling but like I was also happy to see them grown into fine adults. It's nice but also sad cuz We're not close anymore, i wish we could get closer again but it's probably not possible now... I think one of them even got a job now so like... it's crazy how time flies.
          One of them is the same age as me, and the other one is older than us. He still wasn't as close but the one who is the same age as me, I still remember how we used to climb up on the gate and swing around and jump around, throw neem seeds at each other, like playing it as a game of some sort lmao. It was so good. I miss those days :( and it's sad that when I saw them today, even if we gave eo a smile, it felt.... not the same. I just don't like that I've grown distant to many people.
          I don't have many cousin brothers, these are also not very... nazdeek ke ristedaar, but I wish and hope we can get closer again like we used to be that one summer. *sigh*

Bhai mausam kaisa hai