☠️dead mf☠️

ok i found one real person to put on my list :’)

ya’ll i’m done my partner said anna kendrick was on their list of people they would let rail xem and my list only exists because of fictional characters, like hello??? there is no railing me unless you don’t exist according to my list
          
          i’m done
          
          it’s 4:30 am
          
          i need sleep

don’t make the mistakes i did. hurting yourself won’t get you anywhere. it might be shallow now but one day it’ll be so big your on the brink of life and death in the ER crying because you couldn’t before. life is worth living. find yourself a person who genuinely cares about you and stay by their side forever. until their sick of you. life is worth living, despite all the bad shit, at the end of the day we only get one chance, don’t blow it and die young, please. i’m here if any of you need to talk <3

i’m literally just venting
          
          i’m so exhausted. of everything. i put my all into our relationship and i don’t think they have put anything but a sliver. they hate all my gifts, they hate when i try to show i care, they hate talking to me, they make fun of me, they ignore me, they never ever ask me how i’m doing or even bother to message first. if i didn’t put every ounce of my energy into this relationship it would simply shatter before my eyes. we don’t talk if i don’t message first. i try my hardest to make them happy but i always do everything wrong. 
          
          my own parents don’t even think i’m going to pass this grade. i try as hard as i can on everything. but i’m to fucking stupid to get anything done. “it’s easy” they say, no it’s not, it’s really fucking hard, living just isn’t for me, im behind everyone and everything, my brain doesn’t work the same, but that’s no excuse. i deserve nothing. i am incapable of being a decent human being. and i’m so tired of living. i hope the afterlife is better than this, because i don’t know how much longer i can take this 

ya’ll i got a confession
          
          i listen to mask by dream unironically i don’t even like dream the song is just so relatable for no reason 

hear me out
          
          
          
          
          
          
          
          
          
          
          
          
          
          
          
          
          
          
          
          
          
          
          
          
          
          
          
          
          
          
          
          
          
          
          
          
          
          
          
          
          
          
          
          
          
          
          
          
          
          
          
          
          
          
          
          
          
          
          
          
          
          
          
          
          
          thighs

hey! mom said it's MY turn to have the happy chemical now!! hand it over!!

ur mom in my bed rn

my mental health has been down in tarturus for so long but i'm gettin help now so new chapters should start eventually thank u all ilysm/p <33

ranboo beloved