Annalise

Y’ALL I FINALLY FUCKING GRADUATED!!!!! I’m going to work a lot this summer not only at my job but also on here with my stories, I know I have said that before but I promise I will do it. And if I don’t, please feel free to bombard me on here with messages or any of my socials lmao. Love you, hope your doing great!!❤️❤️❤️❤️

Hey so I know I’m probably just talking to myself at this point but I will work on writing. It might not be very good considering I’m emotionally numb at the moment. And to add, my girlfriend broke up with my because of that, she said I have too many issues. But whatever, so I’m not in a great place but it does give me more time to do things if i could get up. So i will try and write from my bed. I hope you all are doing good. (I realize I just said all of you when I’m literally probably talking to no one anymore) I’m so inactive. ❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️

I HAVE A PROBLEM GUYS, I NEED YOUR HELP!!!! PLEASSEEEEE
          So I have written TWO ORIGINAL (more like a million tbh, but real ones I want people to read) stories and I don't know if I should post both or just one? I have the first one: Love at First Brew and then the other, which is more progressed just doesn't have a title yet. Which one would y'all want????
          ~Annalise ❤❤❤❤❤❤

Okay so like I said in my last post, one of my favorite youtubers died. Well, his wife posted a video to their channel explaining how he died. I have watched them for over 2 years so I felt like so really knew them. She had said that behind the scenes he struggled with depression, anxiety, and ADHD. Which is basically everything I struggle with. She went on to say about how he was prescribed meds and two of the three became this lethal mixture and he became addicted. So they spent a month apart and he got clean. So when they went back home together and was getting somewhat normal she didn’t think anything of it when he said he was going to tale a bath one night. She said he had just been apologizing to her about what he did and he felt horrible about it. So after a while she went to check on him and found in him the garage. He had hung himself. At that point in the video I had to stop and collect myself somewhat before I continued because that part is what hurt me the most. That part where I knew exactly what went through his head before he did it. Except I took the extra second and fully realized what I was doing. And I just wish that God had given him that extra second because he was way to fucking young. He was 19 with a 2 year old and a newborn. Way to young. But what I really want to say is that, suicide is never the option. I know it may feel that way, trust me I do but it’s not. And if you feel that way please reach out, even to me and I’ll do my best to help you get through it. Just please.
          
          P.S. Landon and his family is now my background
          
          
          RIP Landon Chase Clifford
          Fly high angel  #BlueforLandon

Hey all. So, I don't know if any of you watched Cam and Fam but I did for a while and I'm still a lot heartbroken about Landon. I always couldn't wait to have a relationship like theirs and was always jealous they had met so young. I still believe they are soulmates even though he is in heaven now. Anyways, I just hope anyone who watched them too is doing okay. 
          
          Rest in Peace Landon, I hope you are doing okay up there. <3<3<3<3

Hey all so, I have posted a tribute on almost all of my stories, including finished ones, to Naya. She changed my life, her and one other girl had made me realize I was gay, so her death has really hit me hard. But I took a break from writing the tributes because I need to recover a little before I post my last one. I hope all of you are doing okay, and I want you all to know that anything you guys need, I am here for you. Message me on here, or even ask me for my number, I’ll give it to you. Just reach out if you aren’t okay, please❤️
          Now go give your loved one a hug because they could be gone tomorrow

Hey all, so I’ve been so busy I haven’t been able to watch any news and I just found out about Naya Rivera. For all of you gleeks out there, this is the third that went to soon. My thoughts and prayers are with Naya’s family and friends. And with all of those who loved her like I did
          
          ~Annalise❤️(It’s not letting me do a rainbow of hearts but know it’s there)

Okay so, I haven’t written at all! So I am just going to pause all my stories for now because I don’t know if I am going to write anymore. I have never finished a book unless I was reading it. But I do have good news, I am nowhere near depressed at all, I have been happy for a while even during this while COVID thing. Which I hope you all are good and well, speaking of COVID. But other than that, I have also been following this girl, she is really really hot and has an amazing personality. But she lives in West Virginia and I live in Arizona but hopefully if I get accepted I’ll live in Kansas next year. The only other thing is that she’s 19 and I’m only 17. But she doesn’t matter, I’ve gone after a girl who was 2 year older before. And yes, it you didn’t know that about me, I am a lesbian. I have dated guys but none of the relationships were ever good because in all honesty. I was just hoeing around. But that’s all, cause I’m going to bed because it’s 11:30(actually 9:30 where I am but from where I just flew from it’s 11:30) and I have jet lag big time. So goodnight and I hope all of you are well. Love you all, especially those who stuck with me(which is probably nobody)
          ~Annalise❤️❤️❤️❤️

So almost 3 months, huh? Yea, sounds like me. So now I’m 17 and I really have not been writing at all. You see, that’s how I am. I have a million of unfinished stories around my room in notebooks. I start but never finish them and it’s honestly horrible. I’m also dealing with some mental issues right now. I’ve had like a deep depressive state for a while and I’m pretty sure I hit rock bottom the other night. But now I’m somewhat okay but I’ll be okay. But I don’t want to talk about that, I just wanted y’all to know. But I will try my best to start writing again on my stories, I’ll start one at a time. So, okay. Yea, that’s it. And thank you to anybody who has still stuck with me(which is probably nobody). 
          Bye!!
          -Annalise❤️❤️❤️❤️

Okay, so I'm not going to sugarcoat anything, I haven't been writing for a while. I literally have been so occupied its crazy. My kids(not actual) are getting ready for college while I get ready for my senior year of high school. I'm looking at scholarships and making sure I get good grades, I'm working as an athletic training student aide at my school while also trying to figure out what I'm going to do about an ex who wants back in my life(not the one from my lats post, this is one from last school year that I kept private). Also trying to ya know, have a life with all that and try to get a real, paying job. It is alot and so I'm going to take a break from writing until at least this summer when I get time(not that I haven't really taking a break lol). Anyways, so sorry guys!! I still love everyone who has stuck with me(which is probably no one).