Depression comes in deep and heavy waves for me. Its consuming and overwhelming. The worst part is having only your thoughts as company leaving you in a darker place than you were before

Someone please tell me how to feel alive, I haven't in a while:/

One of the worst feelings in the world is looking in the mirror and realize you do not even recognize the person you are staring back at. That’s when you know you have completely  lost yourself and do not even know who you are anymore 

I feel weird. I can’t stop questioning myself and everything around me. I feel a sense of discomfort in every choice I make. Am I making wrong choices or have I just been thinking too fucking much? I’ve been working in the expansion of my mind so intently. I can’t help but wonder if my efforts have a weird, paradoxical side effect. Like the strive to find my inner peace with presence is the illusion that I even have something to work towards, if that makes sense. I’ve been unsure. I question whether any of this is significant. Worth a thought. I need change.

Sometimes the things I feel are so overwhelming it almost feels alien. 

I go to bed every night wondering why, I was never enough for you...

All I want is for someone to hold me close and tell me everything is going to be okay...even if they are lying