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Im back

I really want to understand what i want how do i work how can i ease the pain, it is not just some emotional shit going on, those thoughts are back and i can't seem to feel okay.

Getting stupider day by day. Sucks to be me. Number of friends i have are starting to decrease, i choose to be alone all the time.. Why can't i just find happiness easily. Dont i deserve to be happy? I really am not used to be alone but its okay, i get it, i was never good for anyone, always too deep or too ugly to be around. Sometimes they dont understand me. I really wish i could find what fits me the most and i wanna stay there all by myself & watch the whole universe works.

why am i feeling this way?! im drowning but im floating. i want to be normal. i want to be happy. i just want me to stop thinking. i dont want my anxieties to overpower me and control my feelings. im caged and trapped in the maze of my anxieties and insecurities.

everything is not me, everything kills me, every single damn thing hurts me rn.

and know you make me feel bad and sad and alone

I know who you called fake, its me ik. I didnt give clear details about me going or not. and when I go to that one event. i get called fake just because im busy tking care of my little cousins and the only free time I have is during that time. So, youre the fake one. im trying to open my mask and be myself, I guess you ruined it. now im a two face like you.

im kinda proud that ive made it this far and keep posting my rambles and thoughts and pieces of me in 's o r r y' 

Momentarily pissed at everything