accioavacadoxx
Okay, so I feel that I want to give you all a bit of an explanation as to why all of my fics have disappeared. The short and sweet version is that I deleted all of my fics due to what I can only describe as a mental breakdown (how glamorous, I know)
I’ve just recently passed the 1 year anniversary since losing a parent, and that anniversary honestly felt like being hit by a semi truck and then reversed back over. I thought I was fine, because in all honesty, this parent was never around anyways, but I had just started to form a bond with them again when they passed, and my way of “coping” was to cry for a couple minutes and then say I was fine, and bury myself deep within my many fanfics that I was using as a distraction. Really wouldn’t recommend doing that btw.
On top of that, a dearly loved grandparent of mine ended up in hospital on the day of the 1 year anniversary with rapidly declining health, because apparently my suffering is funny :-|
Anyways, i chose to delete all my fics 9 or 10 days ago (I’ve honestly lost count), but because I still adore SaneGiyuu and I love the many nice members of the community I have formed, I am going to continue writing fanfiction, but I’m going to prioritise myself first, so probably slightly shorter chapters, and l many less fics being worked on at the same time.
Regardless, here’s my first fic back! I hope you all enjoy it ❤️
https://www.wattpad.com/1647328439?utm_source=ios&utm_medium=postToProfile&utm_content=share_reading&wp_page=reading&wp_uname=accioavacadoxx
novxstar
@accioavacadoxx aw i'm so sorry for your loss, and yes, of course prioritise yourself first. take all the time you need, and we all just want you to prioritise your wellbeing. we're just happy that you're safe and i know that none of us want to pressure you into writing when don't want to or when you're too tired. we completely understand and we will always support you with this
KindOfAFailure
@accioavacadoxx omg i didn’t even see this until now. i completely understand. despite not knowing how the pain of losing a loved one feels, i know that it can literally be soul crushing. i’m glad you decided to prioritize yourself and hope you continue to do so. i want to remind you that no one you know on this site expects any sort of results out of you and are just glad to have updates. i’m glad you’re not trying to trapeze thirty different works at the same time and i sincerely hope that you can live a steady life with those losses. that’s coming out kind of wrong, i don’t want it to seem like your trauma is probably going to tip over your entire life, but im also just trying not to say “let go”. i know you’re not asking for sympathy or empathy, but you deserve it and i hope this community continues to offer whatever support we can. <3
GIYUU_SAAN
@accioavacadoxx I'm really sorry for all your losses, and i understand that going through all of this is not easy at all, and using fics as coping mechanism isnt the healthiest, but works for a while until it doesnt. Regardless, i completely support u woth ur descision, and keep doing what u think is right. What matters most to us (at least me) is that our favourite author is healthy and happy, and then the fics come second. Now i'm sure that ur better again, im going to ur foc ASAP *excited cackling*
