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lol someone pointed out that I’m always publishing new stories, and you’re absolutely right. While I know it’s probably a bit ridiculous the amount I post at times, I think people forget that I spent 17-18 months jobless while disabled, where the only thing(s) I did was write, and take care of my home (cooking, cleaning, animals, etc) and obviously focused on self improvement too, and sat a course that enabled me to write even more in my free time (yay me!)
          
          I’m aware the constant flow of “new stories” VS “Completed stories” is probably frustrating to some, and I think being in a stressful situation where my mental state has been all over the show, definitely has impacted my writing in the sense that I always want to be doing more and bringing new content out because I get easily bored and want a new challenge.
          
          I promise I will try to limit myself until my other fics are completed *insert laughing and crying emoji* ♡
          
          Don’t worry though, some of the fics I publish are 6+ months old and have been stuck in my drafts ever since

How Yuu Met San, Chapter 9 is up! ✨ Actually proud of myself for getting this up.
          https://www.wattpad.com/1590888295?utm_source=ios&utm_medium=postToProfile&utm_content=share_reading&wp_page=reading&wp_uname=accioavacadoxx

So I know the Wicked movies are loosely inspired by the book, but it’s crazy to me that people still think Glinda and Elphaba weren’t crushing on each other. It’s also crazy to me that people think Wicked is all sunshine and rainbows.
          
          As for Glinda and Elphaba, there is literally a kissing scene between them, where Elphaba kisses Glinda twice. Elphaba’s nanny also says that it was obvious Elphaba had a crush on Glinda in college and Elphaba never denies this (at least from memory, I don’t recall her ever denying it). They also snuggle on the train to keep warm, but Glinda’s POV implies there was more to it for her, emotionally speaking.
          
          Wicked is wild, just letting you all know. Beastiality and orgies, and all that jazz. Fiyero was also married with 3 kids (if I remember right) but had an affair with Elphie. There is murder, betrayal, a messed up societal construct, and a whole lot of drama.

So I’m gonna get vulnerable with you all, and say that right now is dark times. I can’t go into all the details, but my partner has been let go at his work, and I was previously on a disability allowance that was cut a while back due to new rules, so coming up to December, I’m not really feeling the Christmasy cheer or spirit. I’ve applied for three jobs this week alone, and it’s only Tuesday. My current job is estimated to finish in 1.5 weeks (at latest), and rn, bills are ridiculous, rent is overdue, and electricity prices have been increased (｢•-•)｢ ʷʱʸ? To make matters worse, the job market is appalling right now and nobody is hiring unless you know someone who can get you in. So unless I want to move towns, or to an entirely different country, things are gonna get rough.
          
          I know I have various age ranges who read my fics, so whether you’re a struggling adult with a family, or a college student with minimal food and finances, or even a child/teen that has seen the pressure it puts on your parents and family and you feel crap about it. Just know, I hope it all gets better. I feel for you all ♡ I really hope your situation improves!
          
          Writing is not a top priority for me right now. It is something I will do WHEN and IF I have time, but I do still hope to be able to bring you at least one update a week. Writing has been my biggest coping mechanism for stress and anxiety, so I don’t intend on stopping any time soon.

I regret not watching Black Butler sooner. It’s sooo good so far !!!

Chapter 8!! How Yuu Met San ✨ Sorry for the delay,  but I loved writing this chapter for you all.
          https://www.wattpad.com/1590709715?utm_source=ios&utm_medium=postToProfile&utm_content=share_reading&wp_page=reading&wp_uname=accioavacadoxx

Sorry for going MIA, Wattpad stopped working on my phone and I didn’t have access to my laptop. Anyways, I have work from today onwards and am sick af and stressed rn, but hope you all are doing well. Updates may be a little slower, but I have two half finished chapters for ES and HYMS (I can’t be bothered typing the full titles lol)

@accioavacadoxx Yeah. I think AO3 is okay because WattPad is kind of for kids. I don't understand as well 

@accioavacadoxx Why are you even getting reported?! TvT

So I know I don’t owe anything to anyone, but I just wanted to inform people that I have unpublished the below fics, and I apologise if you’re at all upset by this decision.
          
          Bound by Fate
          Caught in the Rain
          Torn Between Shadows
          Saints Don’t Wear Leather
          Fragments of You
          Paper Planes
          Amnesia: The Taste of Solitude
          
          I will be gradually going through Uncharted Feelings, Echoes of Sweet Citrus, and The Soulmate Link and revising/editing them. This will be a slow process that could take me at least a year, honestly.
          
          I know some of you may have been in the midst of reading/rereading some of these fics, and I apologise.♡
          
          I’ve been struggling a lot as of late with recent self doubt toward my writing, and due to pretty consistent complaints and threats I’ve received, I just lost all confidence in my older fics. This isn’t a decision I took lightly. It honestly kinda hurt to take those fics down because I’m sentimental over my older writing, and the memories I shared with fellow readers and writers.
          
          So again, I apologise if this has frustrated or upset anyone. The fics have not been deleted, just unpublished. Maybe one day I’ll republish them, but right now, I just couldn’t handle seeing the death threats and negativity each day.
          
          Safe fics that won’t be unpublished below:
          
          Where Monsters Wait
          Two Broken Men
          Exit Strategy
          The Runaways
          The Colours I Cannot See
          A Season With You
          In The Next Life
          Date Me, I Dare You
          How Yuu Met San
          
          If it’s not on the list, there’s a chance it could be removed soon. ˙˙