「 ✦ J E N I ✦ 」

My job finished early for the year, so I’m slowly getting back into updates. It’s taking me a little time as my mind is still stuck in “work mode”, and I also unfortunately lost a family member this past Friday, which has been very hard, but I know I gotta keep moving forward or I’ll be worse off.
          
          Might take me a little, but expect updates this week.
          
          ㅤ♡I hope you all have been well, and life is going okay! Have genuinely missed interacting with you all♡

Hi, you probably won't see this and I'm sorry to bother you, but I was wondering if you could give me some tips for writing smut (for a sanegiyu fanfic), because I suck at writing it

Updates will be slow as I have minimal free time during the week to write with work, not that writing is a priority rn. My job finishes up in two weeks though, so will update when I can.

Forgot to post this yesterday, but chapter 2 is up of “The Wild Wind And The Hidden God” ✨
          https://www.wattpad.com/1584295743?utm_source=ios&utm_medium=postToProfile&utm_content=share_reading&wp_page=reading&wp_uname=accioavacadoxx

Not knowing whether you have work or not, due to weather, is the worst. Being told “I’ll text you around lunchtime to let you know” because of a storm, is so irritating. Bruhhh, I can’t make plans or go out because work might randomly call to say I have to come in. I can’t even go grocery shopping in case I’ll have to drop everything to rush in for like 3-4 hours ಥ_ಥ  And I have to take paperwork in to the main office today,  regardless of whether I have work or not,  which is gonna be fun because I have no clue where I’m even going.

lol someone pointed out that I’m always publishing new stories, and you’re absolutely right. While I know it’s probably a bit ridiculous the amount I post at times, I think people forget that I spent 17-18 months jobless while disabled, where the only thing(s) I did was write, and take care of my home (cooking, cleaning, animals, etc) and obviously focused on self improvement too, and sat a course that enabled me to write even more in my free time (yay me!)
          
          I’m aware the constant flow of “new stories” VS “Completed stories” is probably frustrating to some, and I think being in a stressful situation where my mental state has been all over the show, definitely has impacted my writing in the sense that I always want to be doing more and bringing new content out because I get easily bored and want a new challenge.
          
          I promise I will try to limit myself until my other fics are completed *insert laughing and crying emoji* ♡
          
          Don’t worry though, some of the fics I publish are 6+ months old and have been stuck in my drafts ever since

How Yuu Met San, Chapter 9 is up! ✨ Actually proud of myself for getting this up.
          https://www.wattpad.com/1590888295?utm_source=ios&utm_medium=postToProfile&utm_content=share_reading&wp_page=reading&wp_uname=accioavacadoxx

So I know the Wicked movies are loosely inspired by the book, but it’s crazy to me that people still think Glinda and Elphaba weren’t crushing on each other. It’s also crazy to me that people think Wicked is all sunshine and rainbows.
          
          As for Glinda and Elphaba, there is literally a kissing scene between them, where Elphaba kisses Glinda twice. Elphaba’s nanny also says that it was obvious Elphaba had a crush on Glinda in college and Elphaba never denies this (at least from memory, I don’t recall her ever denying it). They also snuggle on the train to keep warm, but Glinda’s POV implies there was more to it for her, emotionally speaking.
          
          Wicked is wild, just letting you all know. Beastiality and orgies, and all that jazz. Fiyero was also married with 3 kids (if I remember right) but had an affair with Elphie. There is murder, betrayal, a messed up societal construct, and a whole lot of drama.

So I’m gonna get vulnerable with you all, and say that right now is dark times. I can’t go into all the details, but my partner has been let go at his work, and I was previously on a disability allowance that was cut a while back due to new rules, so coming up to December, I’m not really feeling the Christmasy cheer or spirit. I’ve applied for three jobs this week alone, and it’s only Tuesday. My current job is estimated to finish in 1.5 weeks (at latest), and rn, bills are ridiculous, rent is overdue, and electricity prices have been increased (｢•-•)｢ ʷʱʸ? To make matters worse, the job market is appalling right now and nobody is hiring unless you know someone who can get you in. So unless I want to move towns, or to an entirely different country, things are gonna get rough.
          
          I know I have various age ranges who read my fics, so whether you’re a struggling adult with a family, or a college student with minimal food and finances, or even a child/teen that has seen the pressure it puts on your parents and family and you feel crap about it. Just know, I hope it all gets better. I feel for you all ♡ I really hope your situation improves!
          
          Writing is not a top priority for me right now. It is something I will do WHEN and IF I have time, but I do still hope to be able to bring you at least one update a week. Writing has been my biggest coping mechanism for stress and anxiety, so I don’t intend on stopping any time soon.

I regret not watching Black Butler sooner. It’s sooo good so far !!!