moomi (๑¯◡¯๑)

hey everyone. sorry i’ve been mia. a lot has been going on. like i mentioned in my last, my mental and physical health have been terrible. i feel as if i’ve hit rock bottom. been having to push myself so much since my mom had been home recovering from surgery so things have gotten worse, having to do everything and help her since my sister is... yeah. basically a selfish bitch. 
          resulted to my not so good coping mechanisms and i’m not proud of myself for it. i really want to write more and i’m sorry i’m not here or updating. 
          i’ve gotten new doctors that are so much better. i hope things improve with everything they have planned. but i do want to try writing some oneshots that /aren’t/ mcr related because of bad memories. so. i hope u don’t mind. i’d really appreciate if my followers gave it a chance and read them whenever i’m able to feel ok to write again. i miss u all and i’m overwhelmed and so touched with how much u all still read and enjoy my stories. thank u so much. 
          i hope to return soon. 

hi sorry, i haven’t been doing well at all. mentally and physically. i know i keep disappearing after a few updates and i’m really sorry. i’m mad at myself for not being able to complete this story. i’ll work on it soon, i’ve just had no motivation for anything. it’s difficult for me to even get up out of bed. 
          i miss you all and hope you aren’t too let down, i apologize again.

continue supporting black lives matter this pride month and please be careful due to pridefall. keep urself safe and keep spreading awareness. 
          end police brutality. 
          i’ve spoken up numerous times on twitter and instagram, i’m sorry i haven’t made a statement here sooner. i’ve been too angry to sign into everything else but know i am here and i am fighting. as a part of the community AND an ally for those putting their lives at risk when i am unable to do so myself. 
          use ur voice. 
          we are stronger together. 

i didn’t disappear again, i’m here. i am so so sorry  dealing with a lot and i forgot to come back and check and then update with u all i’m sorry omg 

tbh.. i’m not sure when i should post updates/how far apart i should upload? i have up to chapter 8 ready rn.. i’ve never uploaded like, a story with chapters so idk how far apart i should upload. every week? every other week? set a specific day and upload on those? (like, every friday?? idk lmao)
          
          i was gonna wait and see if anyone was reading/still interested before i shared another chapter, at least but... i understand why readers have diminished so much since i’ve disappeared  

STORY UPDATE: 
          i forgot i have to go through and re-italicize words since they don't copy and paste lol, but the chapters are edited a bunch and have uploaded!!
          if you wanna re-read those at all. :)
          i will go back and fix the italicization needed in the morning ~
          
          i really hope that you're all still here with me for this (｡•́︿•̀｡)

update: “i have always felt safest with you in the dark” has become “we pull apart the dark” instead. 
          
          also; even if you knew my name prior, i’m using a pseudonym for this story in particular. 
          i hope you understand. 
          thank you. 
          
          

Hey, how are you? I just wanted to check on you and make sure you were okay.

i have.. unpublished a couple of my one shots solely bc they’re crap and we’re the first few things i wrote when i came back to wattpad and i do not like having those as a first impression of my writing lol
          
          STILL WORKING ON MY VAMP X GHOST AU i’m sorry it’s taking awhile i am. editing a lot. and updating the chapters as i do. 

hey. anyone still here? been awhile. 
          i may upload more of my original story because i only published 3 out of the 9 chapters i wrote. and i may get back into it again. 
          mcr / frerard isn’t entirely my thing anymore but my stories were never frerard focused. i just took their names and a few characteristics of the boys (artist, tattoos, yk) to keep it a fanfic but overall; it was just me creating my own stories. so i wouldn’t try to continue this as a frerard fanfic, despite the characters still being mcr. if that makes any sense?
          anyways, i’m just asking if 
          1. anyone remembers me lol and 
          2. if anyone would care for more chapters. 
          
          i know my grandmother has been asking me constantly for updates and to finish the story.