Raconteur

I think I’ll keep learning my lesson when it comes to writing stories. I just want to let myself know that first drafts are always trash, and it is inevitable not to publish the damn book even when it’s already completed. So, if anyone wondering, I’m unpublishing chapters due to its nature that it’s still raw and messy. I am continuing in silence, and will come back soon as it’s done.

I haven’t given up yet. I know, I should’ve a long time ago. My profile ended up webbed, rotting, and abandoned like we all do. I’ve thought of it, too, but I couldn’t grasp the reality of letting go of the one and only thing that keeps the real me. It was me, it IS me. I wanted to see what it could’ve been if I keep pushing, I deserve to see my future with it.
          
          It’s just at some time, it’s full of doubts, errors, and perceiving perfections. But I’ll keep trying. I’ll try, and try, and try, until I can finally succeed.
          
          And that goal? It’s just one simple thing— it is to publish my stories and to complete everything that I planned to— with my dignity and pride.
          
          I hope it happens, I hope it will happen. Maybe then, just then, I could be able to see myself ripping my side lips so wide out of satisfaction until I can finally say I’m proud of myself.

first week of June! I can’t believe I made it this far. All I wish with this month is abundance, I hope I can get through it someday, together with what I’m writing today.
          
          So far, I’ve already released my first update within this month. Sigurado akong magiging productive ako within this day because who knows what might happen next, ‘di ba? I applied for a summer job, maybe I couldn’t get back with writing anymore as I’m going busy— only if I will get accepted for the job, and I hope so.

I just graduated last Friday! Gladly, I be able to pull the strings to update today despite busy of being a post-senior high school student.

HRS’ outline was already outdated. It doesn’t align with me anymore— personally. Everything, even the plot, felt unrealistic for me. But why not let’s try to work it out, right? Those stand alones that I have were already in the past, but mind you, I want to finish their stories— for the past self who always dreamt of finishing one of her first few creations.
          
          So, if anyone, perchance, saw my first two stand alone novels, I recommend you to gather a lot of imagination to get along with them. This stories were my first walk with writing, so please, bear with typographical errors, grammar alert, and the cheesiest lines that you’ll ever read. Haha, thank you!
          
          — Love,
          Raconteur

publishing physical book excites me too much that pressure's got sucked by my head, leading to a mental block.
          
          if then, maybe I shouldn't think of that opportunity first. I need to finish my story, no matter what.

I thought of all those writing pieces of advice and told myself, "Eh, let's just do that at the end of the day."
          
          because I literally can't finish my story if that advice is followed.

AYOH has reached 30 chapters! This is the thing where it’s another milestone of achievement. I can’t believe after all these years, I finally did it.

I am really TEMPTED to start my other stories but to prove myself to me, I will be loyal finishing my on-going right now. hehe!

tomorrow is april na, I can’t believe how fast time flies. malapit na akong grumaduate. and I am beyond thankful for what’s waiting for me. for now, I just want to take things slow, especially for writing a wonderful story<3