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Eclair
          
          my drug-addicted wife (I never played the game)

Procrastination and anxiety does NOT mix well (I have so many ideas yet so little thought and energy on how to put these words together for public view)

Feeling a bit better, not that anyone's wonderin 
          
          
          
          obsessing over Scissors for some damn reason. Heavily tempted to make her as a bot, but... Gotta get all her info onto a damn template. My procrastinating ass will probably get it done... Sooner or later...
          
          
          ...I love my evil lady

(vent)
          
          
          
          Everyone else has their someone.
          
          
          Am I even good enough to be anyone's friend? I disappear for weeks on end, I'm probably not truthful to myself or them, and I'm weak.
          
          Very weak, correction. I'm still alive and haven't hurt myself, but the temptations are strong.
          
          Then I remember that people suffered worse than me, so my whining is fucking pathetic.
          
          Al I can probably do is repeat an "I'm sorry" and hope that things feel better. I'm tired of being alone, but how am I supposed to fix anything if I'm not consistent to anything?
          
          Thinking that I should say bad things to myself if it means someone else can feel better. Then again, that's stupid. Just feeling incredibly vulnerable at the moment and don't have the slightest clue on how to calm down.
          
          I will eventually, probably in a day or two, but loneliness and depression is not really going anywhere.
          
          Just very scared of doing something that's probably pissing someone off at the moment.