Adiki

i hate it when ppl who don’t like sharing songs or ppl who think their music ‘taste’ is 
          ‘superior’ tries talking to me. Ah
          so silly.
          i love when ppl who love sharing songs enter my life. 
          “keimah a tang i hria” ai in
           “analh tiraw” “tinge i duh chhan” 
          TOP TIER >>>>>>> 
          there’s so much more intelligence in there.

i think it over and it doesn’t add up
          i know it comes from above.
          
          ♡︎

warm sunlight
          spacious porch
          laughter
          greenery 
          peace
          contentment 
          warm food
          healthy food 
          bakes
          birds chirping 
          clean laundry.

hello
          ka chhuak chak tawh.

          the year is 2021, 
          first yr in college, February. 
          twenty year old Adiki is sitting quietly in the library eating dried bread and an apple
          sobbing hard
          wanting to call her family but too afraid they’ll be sad,
          wondering why people here are so mean
          hating the system and 
          scared she’ll turn out like most of them.
          
          i want to send the people i have now to her
          dressed in marvels clothing 
          oh to let her know that “i” am happy,healthy, at peace, and that everything is brighter now and 
          that i am not easily influenced, that i aces my exams, that it’s calm now, that i never stopped making videos, and that i’m doing well all by God’s grace.
          
          -dec 2024.

22nd Dec 2024
          my last day in Falkawn for this year
          i went for a walk, sat and cried and recorded my voice for i think 30 mins or 45 mins.
          talked about how tired i am, how i want anyone to ask me what i want to eat or if there’s anyplace i want to see. 
          I want to eat cheese and drink coffee in italy.
          It’s always enge i zir chhunzawm don
          i’m so grateful and thankful where i am, things i do, nevertheless i am tired. 
          I said thank you to the place, the trees, the bench i sat on, for listening to me and taking in all the things i let out.

can you come find me?
          can you ask me what i want to eat
          places i want to see
          i’m a little tired of everyone asking me what i’m gonna do with my life.

it’s dec 2024
          went for a Christmas event
          came back home feeling super drained 
          now i know i’m 100% introvert. HMMMM

been sprinting for the past 6 weeks and now there’s only 4 weeks for the yr to end
          tuman min nghak lo
          hun pawn
          pangai deuh in sunset pawh ka en tum dan angin ka la en lo
          (tap thei chiah e) hahaha

ka hah.