adorkable_mess

If anyone's even seeing this, hii
          	Im back and I'm better now, and I'd really like to connect to my old (and hopefully make new) friends on here again. This really was my safe space back during Covid years.

its-ok-to-be-insane

Olay, I've been panicking quite for some time.....
          and have been more anxious, because i kind of assumed something, i shouldn't have, and was busy with life, a lot....
          
          BUT DOES ANYONE HERE KNOWS THIS USER IS ALIVE OR NOT!??!? 
          
          DOES ANYONE EVEN KNOW THIS KID? I PROMISE I WILL GET IN TOUCH THROUGH INSTA, EVEN IF I'M RESTRICTED TO USE THAT APP....
          
          
          But, for my sanity, do inform me about this precious one's existence.

A_hOomAn_mEsS

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@its-ok-to-be-insane hiii omg
            I am so so sorry to worry you, i deleted Wattpad a long time ago cos yea shit went down, but I'm okay now. Thank you for worrying so much, this is the acc user speaking from diff acc as i forgot password to this one. Anyways I hope you're doing well
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its-ok-to-be-insane

Hey, I'm here to check on you.
          Are you good? You haven't been active ever since October! And i was really worried because you didn't answer to my dms at all.
          Please, let me know you are there. It's okay, if you don't wanna talk or if you are not doing really fine. But I'm really worried for you, little one!

adorkable_mess

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If she can do it, be all that, look so beautiful, be the picture perfect girl everyone wants,
          Why the fuck can't I?
          God i wish I were her.

LemmeLiveAlone

@adorkable_mess  maybe she think that she was you.
            You never know what's going on in someone's head
            You're the most beautiful person you'll ever meet no don't wish you were her because you are better 
            No one is picture perfect your eyes are just making you think if someone is picture perfect it's gonna be you and only you 
            If you're so determined of her and become the same don't blame yourself and if you can't do it stop dreaming stop thinking
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adorkable_mess

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Tried explaining it to mom
          Tried explaining it to dad
          Tried explaining it to everyone
          i thought would understand
          
          Then I got myself a therapist
          He tried convinced me these demons 
          They Don't exist
          And he dosed me with all these meds
          So I don't get scared everytime they're near
          
          Yeah I rlly did try everything
          Tried chasing them all away
          5 months later yet here i am
          Bed ridden, surrounded by them
          
          But maybe it's just all my fault
          Maybe I'm the one to blame
          Maybe nothing can help me
          Because I'm the fucking villian
          
          Could the reason no one gets me
          Be that I'm not meant to be saved
          Could the reason no one hears me
          Be that I'm the demon I fear
          The demon that they all want dead
          
          Cause maybe I'm that faulty peice
          Yeah something's rlly wrong with me
          How much more is left to be
          The psycho who went and doomed herself 
          And that was the end of the story
          
          Cuz I keep ruining everything
          And im sick and tired of it happening
          And I guess everyone around me is too
          
          So god, just how much more is there to wait
          Before I can finally escape 
          From this prision cell
          And pay for the crimes
          I've commited.