aellathedreamer

 FINAL MESSAGE. Please Read.
          	
          	To everyone who’s been asking how I write so fast — and to those who’ve been cruel about it — this is the only time I’ll explain.
          	
          	No, I don’t use AI. I write on my iPad’s Notes app. I use Grammarly Premium for typos, but every word is mine.
          	
          	The truth is: I write fast because I’m medicated. I’m not in school. I’m not working. I’m trying to survive. I have depression, ADHD, and a history of suicide attempts. Writing is what silences the noise in my head.
          	
          	Lexapro keeps me emotionally stable enough to keep my characters alive.
          	Adderall helps me hyper-focus — but it also means days without sleep.
          	Lithium is for mood regulation, because I’ve tried to end my life eight times.
          	
          	These meds are prescribed by doctors. Please don’t romanticize or try this combo. I’m not well — my health is declining, and I’ve been in and out of the ER because of online harassment. The bullying made things worse. You don’t see it, but I feel it. Every day.
          	
          	I’m not saying this for pity. I’m saying it because I’ve finally run out of strength to keep quiet.
          	
          	I don’t care if you think my work is AI. Just stop the cruelty.
          	You don’t know what words can do to someone who’s already at the edge.
          	
          	Please — be kind. That’s all I’m asking.
          	
          	Tama na po. Hindi ko na po kaya.

KitsuTheFox2

I miss you
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azperr__

@aellathedreamer Hey author, it's heartbreaking to read this because you really shouldn't have to explain yourself even in this annoying situation. Your story was a refuge and the best I've ever read, no joke, and I just have to thank you immensely for writing it even though I have nothing now. I also hope you're better and that you recover, that the bad messages and bad people no longer affect you and that your path becomes brighter. I hope this isn't the end and that I hear more from you even in a few years ❤️
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-_Elios_-

please you stories were so good, too good to be true maybe for some! I’d really love to finish the wager. Please rest and get well soon ;)
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gaysufferings

Hello, I'm a silent reader of How to Lose a Babysitter in 10 Days. I'm not used to doing this so I apologise if this seems awkward to read, I try. 
          Anyway, I was on my way home when I heard Last Kiss by Taylor Swift play on the bus and it somehow reminded me of Runa and Yumeko. The song gave me a visualisation after a potential fallout between Yumeko and the Timurov family. I don't know where that came from, honestly. It's been a month since I last read your work, so maybe it's just me missing them. I hope this makes you realize that what you do, what you create, what you share with people, are more than just words. You gave life to those characters, and those characters had occupied a small space in our sappy little brains, all thanks to you. And although I wish nothing but for you to come back to tell us the rest of the story, I am not here to fix something that has already been broken by someone else. But I hope this somehow reminded you of at least one good reason as to why you are a writer and why we're still here, as your reader, despite of everything :)

__kathatesu

sobbing rn, this also makes me feel better. i just miss aella and her works!!
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