Guys, I'm sorry for whoever, if anyone is actually reading my story, for my weird and random updates. It's just that I have a lot on my plate, with schooling and I'm dealing with so much personally and socially, like sometimes my life gets so overwhelming. I feel like i can't deal with it. I just end up forgetting to do stuff and I feel too stupid to even try to formulate a cohesive sentence. Then it takes me a while to regain myself, but I really am trying to be myself. I'm trying to be that happy, outgoing person everyone else around me thinks I am- or was. This is just me rambling and being a whiny person, so if you actually read this, props to you. I just needed to get that off my chest.