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Yk, when my new friend (AP) was telling me about how she wanted to go back to her old school because she missed her friends and everything back there I just blurted out my feelings to her that moment.
          
          Telling her that I would've prefer that too, how it makes it fair between us because if she moved back there she got her friends and at least I can kept mine by myself instead of being in constant a state of second choice/back-up friend I was demoted to when she came.
          (H, the friend in question, didn't came that day) 
          
          She tried to agreed with me, looking self pitying but also taken aback by my sudden vent as if she expected me to pity her too and babied/comfort her.
          
          Then I went into a rant about how sidelined I felt when she moved to our school. How she took most of MY friend's time. How she can't even bear a minute of MY friend listening to me yapping always want all the attention to herself. How unbearable she is. How self righteous she is. How I was basically like that fat funny friend that was only kept around for a comedic relief in the movie.
          
          Ofc I only told her only half of what I wrote above, I like to think I got self restraint at least a little.
          
          
          Sometimes it feels like we are the same and at the same time we are not. 

Anyways, guess who just finished their end of the year exam?? Me :>

Sometimes, I got urges.
          
          To writes, to beta-read it, to post it.
          
          The writer urges.
          
          
          Butttt, I don't have the motivation nor the idea lmao

I likes misunderstanding in stories, it'll end up with a funny outcome.
          
          But the misunderstanding in a romance related stories is just painful dude. It's hurting me too at this point--

The fanfic is tagged as slow-burn but by heaven's I swear it's a first burn 
          
          Aand I've never even read a first burn fic!! 

I think after squeezing my brain to get ideas for my Malay and English essay exam has finally gave me the capability to form a sentence and continue writing the dc(detective Conan) chapter instead of moping around.
          
          Totally NOT because someone commented on my fanfic, totally not. 

(during the English exam paper 1) 
          
          
          
          My school's counseling teacher, entering the class to observe us during the exam : 
          
          Also the counselling teacher, siting down and look over to see most of my classmates already finishing their papers and sleeping :
          
          
          Yet again the counselling teacher, opening her phone to god's know what :
          
          What rang out of her phone : "a corpse.... *insert inaudible words*... the suspect body...-"
          
          Few of my classmates, immediately awake : **stare at her in shock(horror?)** ??? 

(venting a bit, don't read) 
          
          Fuck you for only coming around when you needed a favor out of me or when you feels like messing with me and giving me a misfortune.
          
          I'd say we have our ups and downs but those moments are also including what we're mentioned above. 
          
          You'd be the first in line to make me feel like nothing. Mocking me in name of poking fine. I'd hate to say that a few occasion that you made me felt cared for - this is not one of them. 
          
          You don't care about my feelings if it meant you get to have fun. You were only nice if you want me to do a favor. 
          
          You're a sad excuse of an older sister. 

Nah Shining Armor and Iguro Obanai got realll lucky cause how do even snatch a dam *Princess of Love* and the *Love Hashira*.
          
          I'm actually jealous, no homo. 

I'm sorry but Celestia is a useless aah btch because wdym you're the literal ruler of a whole as kingdom and still got defeated by the power of love??? Not to mention she's basically either 'unavailable' or 'too busy' that she just left the six mane to do everything the entire show??