yeisha

so this is how it feels haha :))

“grabe ang respeto mo sa sarili mo,” 
          
          yes, it took me years to build this confidence. 

i think what i’m feeling right now is not confusion. this is what i really want. i want to break free and let go. i want to stop suffering. 

i’m so sorry if this relationship is hurting us instead of make us stronger. we’re both suffering, and i do not want to endure it anymore. 3 yrs is enough, i need to move on now or else i’ll suffer for a year again. 

my love for you is platonic; what i feel is platonic. it’s only because i care and not because i feel it through my heart. i care because you had made a big impact to my life; it’s hard to forget. 

i love you, no man can ever replace you, and no one can ever stop me from loving you. you made me feel all the emotions all at once. i grew up watching and adoring you. but i think it’s only because i adored you so much i cannot forget you. 
          
          i thought if i tried again, everything would be fine… but that’s not the case. we tried but it only worsened the situation. 
          
          i hope you find the happiness you deserve. 

it hurts to witness how my feelings are fading day by day. but i do not regret trying and fighting for us. atleast i can proudly say that i did try to make it work, but sadly i fell out of love while you are busy trying to make it work. 

geez, this cold treatment is like a bullet piecing through me again and again, through the years. until when am i gonna endure this. 

how can i unlove a person. i really wanna get over him. i can’t even count now how many times i did try to move on and forget about him. nothing worked.

am i losing him… or am i just losing myself? am i being too clement? what really is the matter? how can i be me again? should i isolate myself like what i did before? will it be fine?