Scarecrow

Biology's postponed too. I don’t wanna sit for exams anymore T^T

Also, I'll write lots of stuff that aren't okay at all. R*pe, abuse, trafficking etc. Guess that 's my way of coping. 

I'm unpublishing all my stories. 
          
          I think I'm adulting now and am learning to understand the difference between right and wrong. 
          
          The stories I wrote before weren’t okay at all. They contained things that were not okay. 
          
          I was a dense kid and I probably still am. But I'd never want another teenager to read books that contain r*pe, m*rder, g*re, lack of justice and think it's okay for these things ro happen. 
          
          I'm sorry for making the female protagonist dumb ebough to go through hell and still accept the male protagonist, even though he's in reality an antagonist. 
          
          I won't any longer support people being a jerk and getting away with that. 
          
          I hope, for those who read my stories and appreciated them, or didn’t appreciate to know that I'm thankful for everything I got. Let it be a positive or negative reaction. 
          
          I may continue to write. But they'll have mature plots and storyline. Most of all, they won't be fanfictions. All of the characters will be imagined and made up. 
          
          Thanks and sorry to everyone. I didn't have many readers but I'm glad some people read my books. 

My fucking GPA was 5.00!!!!! Got A+ in all of the subjects and I'm so so thankful!!

I'm scared. The reaults will be out within the next two hours. Ten years of my life will be judged based on that one single result

So I had a huge ass breakdown today. Only a few days more to get the results. I'm scared would be an understatement. Actually, I'm scared of disappointing my parents. They invested a lot in my studies. If the results aren't worthy of the investment, I, the product must get thrown away. But they don't even care what my results are, they're fine with whatever. But that wasn't the only breakdown. I ended up crying right after getting out of the new physics private tutor's house. I hate intermediate Physics. They're bullcraps for real. Anyways, I hope I'll get used to it. It's too hard for me to understand even simple things that other students understand that easily. Again, it proved that I only have good grades and am actually not smart.

I'm scared. What if I don't stay an ARMY till 2025? What if my excitement and infatuation towards them lessen? 
          
          When I first became an ARMY in 2020, it was nowhere in my plan to get too attached. I only wanted to be a small part of the understanding family. Somehow, I fell too deep. 
          
          Do I regret it? No. But am I proud? Not sure. I'm always scared to get too attached to people. I shouldn’t have. But I don't regret either. 
          
          Insha Allah all seven of them will make it out safely with health and will start their own happy family afterwards. 

Happy Jimin day

Exam's over. I'll start writing again from tomorrow 

My mum broke my earpiece because she's angry at my brother and needs someone to put all her anger onto. She again screamed at me for no reason.