aizdean

Im a retired nerd weeb game player btw guys , an ex genshin player, enstar,pjsk,honkai star,valorant, wuthering waves, roblox, but i quit already like 2 years ago rn i play chess at 3 hours class and minecraft.

aizdean

btw im adult, when i said im adult i didnt meant it like a teen 18 or 19, im above 20 old unc btw. My mbti is INTJ and enneagram 5w6 so/sp with cognitive fuction TE dominant, lowk bored so i js put my typology here.

aizdean

I always felt like im built diff from my friend, i like them as my friend but i never have friend that i can be myself with and talk about all my niche interest comfortably. Like i lowk scared if i talk my interest to ppl that doesnt even align with their interest they will think im childish immaturre shi bruv

aizdean

https://open.spotify.com/user/31m2oqow2yokuqgw77tkmvy34hpq?si=fb45f6303c774b52  yk guys know about spotify wrapped like yesterday? i showed mine and got like shoegaze as number one top genre and 2 my friend said 'wait i never heard that kind of genre and all ur genre song i nver heard it before' and i was like- yeah bc im niche as hell and she was like 'u really weird' lmao i got that comment from 3 diff ppl of my friend irl icl lowk when they said i have a weird taste or intereset from ppl, i got offended for the first  time cus their tone lowk macam nak downgrade and ejek, but rn idc anymore guys im js niche and that was make me diff from them cus mostly all of them listen to local song, which i have no problem with, i listen to local song too but do u need to said smth offended when commenting ab ppl taste, kau dengar jj pun aku tak cakap rempit and who are u to say smth shi ab ppl interest. but yeah guys, that was like 3 month ago, if u guys wanna see, feel free too check my playlist. I have so  much playlist btw but i didnt make it public lmao

aizdean

pov 
          
          
          "Isteri?" Mendengar pertanyaan itu daripadanya, langkah aku hentikan.
          
          "Jadi kau dah kahwin? Asal awal sangat bro? Ke dah terlanjur?" 
          
          Mendengar itu, aku melihatnya dan memberikan sebuah senyuman manis kepadanya. Namun bagiku, itu bukanlah senyuman melainkan emosi yang aku tutup rapat.
          
          "Kau tahu selain belati, apa yang lebih tajam?" Soalku kepadanya tenang.
          
          "Mulut seorang yang tak reti menjaga ucapannya. Ibaratnya kau tusuk paku di sebuah kayu, dan kau cabut kembali, tapi bekasnya masih ada. Kau tidak tahu sesakit apa bekas paku yang kau tusuk tadi." 
          
          "That's the same things, be careful with your words because you don't know how many times it repeats in someone head." Sambung ku lagi.
          
          "At least my wife knows how protect her own dignity.." Ucapanku berhenti seketika meniliknya dari atas kebawah sebelum menyambung kembali bait bicara ku.
          
          "Compared to you." Seusai itu, kaki terus aku bawa beredar dari situ.