Ajax<3

Hurting in silence is the worst pain im feeling right now. i dont even have a valid reason to be upset abt this but i am and its stupid and petty.

im gonna fucking cry i cannot breathe my heart is fucking crying.
          
          I feel like ripping out my hair anf killing myself istg.
          
          
          I dont wanna be like this every time

tbh i just want someone to hold me while i cry on a fucking real note ;-;

i regret last nights thoughts with a full fucking passion :,)

i 50% wanna cry until im throwing up
          
          and 50% wanna be railed until i pass out
          
          idk
          having a mood-
          
          anyways
          
          
          
          tingering-

literally only one small change and im already overthinking ym entire existence :,)

"I would never leave u for someone else1!!!!!!11111!11!11"
          
          
          *proceeds to leave me for someone else*
          
          its actually kinda funny.
          lol.

i hate my birthday sometimes- :,)