Uchiha Akari

It gets harder every time I gotta say goodbye
          Tears are falling, that's why I can't say it eye-to-eye
          Every time that I go, can't find a reason why
          Maybe someday you'll know just how I feel inside
          I can't hold on, won't let go, going down the same old road
          Have it all, take my soul, praying that I'll make it home
          And even if I pretend it'll be alright
          I know I'll see you again in my other life
          I'm drifting on, and you're all alone
          Keep holding on 'cause I'm coming home
          I'm coming back to the ones I know
          Never lose hope 'cause I won't let go
          I'm coming home
          
          -Hollywood Undead

Hey guys! I know I'm super on and off here but just so you know I have been working on Akari's Story a lot as well as the others and I'll start updating again hopefully regularly by April!
          I'm sorry to everyone who followed the weekly updates before I went on hiatus but I'm back and I'm working on updates I promise, Love you all <3

@-SakuraHaruno- So sorry I never saw this! I took a super long break from here

PSA: I  working on new chapters, just very slowly. It's hard to find words to match thoughts lately, but we're slowly getting there. I'll try to start getting some stuff posted soon, love your patience and support-you're the greatest 

There’s not a day that passes by
          The pain has not amassed inside
          It’s breaking me down to the ground
          It’s like I crashed and died
          It’s hard to leave your past behind
          Especially when you’re last in line
          And half the time it acts like vines
          And wraps inside my fragile mind
          Hiding in plain view it seems
          The same old shit I choose between
          Taking who I used to be
          And keep it subdued beneath
          Close to dead and losing me 
          You took a chance and you believed
          So did I, I let you lead
          And grabbed the line you threw to me
          You saved me, you made me
          And through it all you changed me forever
          You love me, you hate me
          And through it all you changed me forever
          You’ve given me a chance to change
          Helped me in ways I can’t explain
          I’ll never understand the way
          You took my hand with no dismay
          Now I’m who I am today
          And that’s the man I plan to stay
          But can’t escape, I can’t evade
          You stranded me and ran away
          Why’d you do it why’d you leave
          Why’d you help me find my feet
          Why’d you guide me blindingly 
          Then turn and say goodbye to me
          All this time I tried to be 
          The person you applied to me
          This lie you feed that I’d succeed
          Is why I’m me, a dying breed
          You saved me, you made me
          And through it all you changed me forever
          You love me, you hate me
          And through it all you changed me forever
          Through it all you changed me
          I’m not the same me
          For better or for worse this person that you made me
          Through it all you changed me
          I’m not the same me
          For better or for worse you changed me forever
          It’s killing me down deep within
          It makes me strain to breath again
          All this pain I keep it in
          If it’s the end where’d we begin
          It’s so hard to comprehend 
          Where we are is where we end
          Let’s make believe let’s just pretend
          You don’t hate me and want me dead
          What you said stays in my head
          An unrelenting discontent

I lost myself into the night
          And I flew higher than I had ever
          But I still felt small
          I clipped my wings and fell from flight
          To open water and floated farther
          Away from myself
          And I swam in the wakes of imposters
          Just to feel what it's like to pretend
          There's no dreams in the lakes only monsters
          And the monsters are my only friends
          They're all that I was
          And never could be
          Eyes in the dead still water
          Tried but it pushed back harder
          Cauterized and atrophied
          This is my unbecoming
          Knives in the backs of martyrs
          Lives in the burning fodder
          Cauterized and atrophied
          This is my unbecoming
          You found me drifted out to sea
          It's automatic, It's telepathic
          You always knew me
          And you laugh as I search for a harbor
          As you point where the halo had been
          But the light in your eyes has been squandered
          There's no angel in you in the end
          And all that I was
          I've left behind me
          Eyes in the dead still water
          Tried but it pushed back harder
          Cauterized and atrophied
          This is my unbecoming
          Knives in the backs of martyrs
          Lives in the burning fodder
          Cauterized and atrophied
          This is my unbecoming
          Now I wait
          This metamorphosis
          All that is left is the change
          Selfish fate
          I think you made me this
          Under the water I wait
          Eyes in the dead still water
          Tried but it pushed back harder
          Cauterized and atrophied
          This is my unbecoming
          Knives in the backs of martyrs
          Lives in the burning fodder
          Cauterized and atrophied
          This is my unbecoming

Who knows how long I've been awake now?
          The shadows on my wall don't sleep
          They keep calling me, Beckoning...
          Who knows what's right?
          The lines keep getting thinner
          My age has never made me wise
          But I keep pushing on and on and on and on
          There's nothing left to say now... [2x]
          I'm giving up, giving up, hey hey, giving up now... [2x]
          There's nothing left to say now... [2x]
          I'm giving up, giving up, hey hey, giving up now... [2x]
          Below my soul I feel an engine
          Collapsing as it sees the pain
          If I could only shut it out
          I've come too far to see the end now
          Even if my way is wrong
          I keep pushing on and on and on and on
          There's nothing left to say now... [2x]
          I'm giving up, giving up, hey hey, giving up now...[2x]
          There's nothing left to say now... [2x]
          I'm giving up, giving up, hey hey, giving up now... [2x]
          I keep falling, I keep falling down...
          I keep falling, I keep falling down...
          Hey!
          I keep falling, I keep falling down...
          I keep falling, I keep falling down...
          If you could only save me
          I'm drowning in the waters of my soul
          There's nothing left to say now... [2x]
          I'm giving up, giving up, hey hey, giving up now... [2x]
          There's nothing left to say now... [2x]
          I'm giving up, giving up, hey hey, giving up now... [2x]

I keep falling out of line
          I was drained and left behind
          All will fade and petrify
          Feed the hate and starve the lies
          Falling in between
          I am caught beneath
          Light the way and let me go
          Suffocate inside
          I will break and watch you crawl
          Bury me alive
          I keep falling out of time
          I was blamed and cauterized
          All will change and calcify
          Feed the hate and starve the lies
          Falling in between
          I am caught beneath
          Light the way and let me go 
          Suffocate inside
          I will break and watch you crawl
          Bury me alive
          Control, Lies inside, Lies inside
          Light the way and let me go 
          Suffocate inside
          I will break and watch you crawl
          Bury me alive
          Light the way and let me go
          Suffocate inside
          I will break and watch you crawl
          Bury me alive, Bury me alive, 
          Bury me alive..

Tired eyes, barely open
          Crippled by a promise broken
          I have seen an empire falling
          Hopeless, can you hear me calling?
          Turn away from all that I know
          Burning this bridge behind me
          Light the way and I'll follow where 
          you go
          Can you tell me what is real?
          'Cause I've lost my way again
          Can you tell me how to feel?
          'Cause I don't feel anything
          Now that I'm down here again
          I'm down with the fallen again
          Searching through the darkness below
          For a light in seas of shadows
          Far from you, but I could never
          Abdicate, I'll fight forever
          Turn away from all that I know
          Burning this bridge behind me
          Light the way and I'll follow where 
          you go
          Can you tell me what is real?
          'Cause I've lost my way again
          Can you tell me how to feel?
          'Cause I don't feel anything
          Now that I'm down here again
          I'm down with the fallen again
          I will not run, I will not fall
          I will not bury it
          This is war, War
          This is war, War
          Tell me what is real
          'Cause I've lost my way again
          Can you tell me how to feel?
          'Cause I don't feel anything
          Now that I'm down here again
          Tell me what is real?
          'Cause I've lost my way again
          Can you tell me how to feel?
          'Cause I don't feel anything
          Now that I'm down here again
          I'm down with the fallen again

If I could hold back the rain
          Would you numb the pain?
          Cause I remember everything..
          If I could help you forget
          Would you take my regrets?
          Cause I remember everything..
          I feel like running away
          I'm still so far from home
          You say that I'll never change
          But what the fuck do you know?