@alexisromax I understand that my friend, I tried the friend thing, she said it too fast and blocked me. Stopped talking to me and made everyone think I was the bad guy until they hear my side of the story. Even so, I still love her to death, I'd forgive her in a heartbeat if she ever said lets try again. We go to school together so at first it was pretty hard to see her 5 days a week not being able to say anything, especially because we have 2 classes together. But it's been 2/3 months now I believe and it gets easier I can say that much. It hurts the same but you get used to it, to being without them. It's the knowing you can live without them but not wanting to that hurts the most. I don't know about you but I swear having a good heart big enough to love the whole world but choosing to give it all to one person and having them hurt you in the end, just makes you wish your heart wasn't so pure. I think for me, my problem is I am aware of all the wrongs that's been done to me but because I've build a deep connection and bond, I always end up too forgiving to a fault. I hate that part. And I don't have to know her to get it, I promise you I do. Even now, nothing changes the way I'm so in love with this girl even when she hurts me over and over again. I'd forgive her if it meant I got a second chance. I have enough self respect to call her out on things and make sure she works on it but regardless, I'd take her back if only she were to ask.
