Evening rants
Hindi ko alam kung makakapagsulat pa ba ako, babalik pa ba, I don't know. Ni simpleng isang sentence hindi ko na maisulat. I wish ako pa rin yung dati na laging excited magsulat, na bawat kataga ay malaman at makabuluhan. But I guess, I can't do anything about this anymore. I'll just probably cherish those memories and won't force to write without ink. I've tried to gaslight myself that I'm fine but no, I'm still in survival mode. In the dark, trying to figure my way out. I'm trying to survive even though everything I've work hard and dream for is collapsing.