I know I'm already horrible at keeping any sort of schedule since summer, but I really need to stop for a while. I've been getting sick left and right and feel over whelmed with my school work since the PSAT tests. I've been stressing and pressing myself for perfect scores because of my impulsive competitive nature and have royally screwed my entire being. I've become more irritable and it's causing me to scrap entire chapters. I've even blown a fuse at my closest peoples! I'm doubting myself and have been full blown panicking about my future and present. I need to find my balance again because I normally have always had a clear image of myself and what will happen. Now, I fear that my life won't have a place for my passion of writing and that makes it all the more worse. I'm so sorry, but I have to stop for a while. I need to find a focus on my work first and I'll try to come right back. I'll see if I can post some of the stuff I have done, but nothing but that for now. Please understand.
I need to keep writing away from stress and aches and pain and all this bull. It's my safe haven and I don't want to corrupt it with the rest of what I need to work through. I want to enjoy writing, but I can't if I doubt all of my choices. Again, I can never apologize enough for breaking these little vows I've made, but I can't say I didn't try to keep it up with the havoc that is my own jumbled mind. Sorry, and have a great time with your lives. I pray you'll have better luck than me, at the moment. Goodbye for now Readers, Over and Out.
And, if any of you ever, don't worry about me. I'll be okay, I just have to figure out me balance again.
