alienhangry

so like, hi. im back after a month. i genuinely dont know if i should continue on my book or not:)

alienhangry

"Scores are just numbers"
          They said.
          Though, it left bitterness inside my heart.
          
          Others spoke with delight,  "Ang taas ng score mo!"
          While I see a failure before me.
          
          The scores are high yet so low, why is that?
          
          I couldn't help but wonder...
          Why does it seem so low?
          I'm only satisfied when it's perfect
          Though I know nobody is.
          
          I never cared about my scores nor my grades for the past few years, so why now?
          
          Is it because of envy? To be seen? Or something else that I can't seem to figure out?
          
          But why?
          Please do tell me... Please...
          
          I do not like the bitterness inside my heart... 
          I want to cry it out, yet my tears feel like drying up...
          Why is that? Why...?
          
          I wanna go back to the past, the past where my grades nor scores don't really matter... Where I only care about passing in the finals... Not something so high...
          
          Why do I want to be at the top so bad? 
          I don't get it...
          I really don't...
          It's hurting me...
          A lot...
          
          My eyes feel like a well... A well that has dried up... Yet, in reality... It was just covered and locked...
          
          How I wish my creativity comes back... It's killing me and my creativity...
          
          Why does it hurt?
          It never really hurts...
          I don't like the pain...
          I HATE the pain...
          I despise it...
          Though I know it's part of our world... Our lives... But why?  Why can't I accept it? Why...? I really really really really really really hate it.... So why...?
          
          Please... Get me out of this misery... Please...
          
          I don't even know why I'm like this... An achiever....
          
          
          
          
          Just sharing this becauseeeeeeeeee I don't know(Hope im not being an attention-seeker or smth)

sophiespadesss

heh…hey…i got logged out of my past account we used to be moots !! im mitsuxikanrojxi lol

alienhangry

@sophiespadesss OMG, I REPLIED LATE AGAINNN
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sophiespadesss

@alienhangry  LOL ITS OKAY DONT WORRY POOKIE
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alienhangry

@sophiespadesss OMG, SORRY FOR THE LATE REPLYYYYYY. SCHOOL IS KILIING MEEE
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alienhangry

OMG GUYS.... I JUST CHECKED MY WATTPAD AND MY STORY(SHUT UP, YOU'RE MY RIVAL) GOT 200+ READS!??!?!?! IM SOOOOOOOO GRATEFUL FOR THATTTT, AAAAAAAAAAA. I'LL TRY TO UPDATE SOONNN, SCHOOL IS KINDA KILLING ME BUT I CAN DO IT, WE CAN DO IT!!! THANKYOU AGGAAAIINNN, EEEEEE

alienhangry

@mitsuxikanrojxi WAAAAAAAAAAAHHH, THANKYOU SOOO MUXXXXXXXXX!!!*CRIES A POOL OF TEARS*
            
            YOU'RE THE BESTTTTT, ILUVYUSUUMUXXX!!<333
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mitsuxikanrojxi

@alienhangry WHAT THAT IS LIKE ??? SO FREAKING COOL ????? IM LITERALLY SO PROUD OF YOU MOOTIE
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alienhangry

I can't do ts anymore, I'm so tired like really tired

alienhangry

@alienhangry dw about that, I was just honestly emotional and depressed bc idk? Mood?
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mitsuxikanrojxi

@alienhangry  hey, ik we’re just silly little mutuals but if you ever wanna talk im here :)
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