Alisha isn't my name

I just wanna hug you and tell you 'I'm here for you.' But I suck at anything that involves affection. So I'll just look at my shoes and pretend not to care. 

I don't wanna leave. I don't wanna pretend that I'm okay. I just wanna lay in my bed and forget about what has happen. 

Wait it's 2017? Ahh okay sure. 

Merry Christmas, I could care less. 

Love you Ali ❤❤❤

Why did you come to me when it was your decision. Do you know how hard it is for someone to just watch something they love slip away. I get every little detail.... It makes me feel like sh*t... Like I'm easily replaceable... That if I leave you'll replace me... Do you not understand how much sh*t I've had to deal with alone... Yet. Yet you still come to me... 

Everything in my head... Became my reality... Fuck... I'm going insane. Any one want a free hug. And if you're lucky you might also get a crying human...

Hey it's me jack Howard