alkiris

          	https://x.com/manontostado/status/2063777031926800406?s=46
          	
          	Thank you for the Shut It Down fan art. My gf showed me, and it made me really happy :) support their account and their art guys. 
          	
          	@manontostado on twitter
          	
          	came on here just to show support and say thank you. 

moosefic

@alkiris oh my gosh my two worlds collided genuinely screamed
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00kkkk

@alkiris she's my oomf on X  I'm so happy she draw this bbangsaz art inspired from your Shut It Down ff 
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alkiris

          https://x.com/manontostado/status/2063777031926800406?s=46
          
          Thank you for the Shut It Down fan art. My gf showed me, and it made me really happy :) support their account and their art guys. 
          
          @manontostado on twitter
          
          came on here just to show support and say thank you. 

moosefic

@alkiris oh my gosh my two worlds collided genuinely screamed
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00kkkk

@alkiris she's my oomf on X  I'm so happy she draw this bbangsaz art inspired from your Shut It Down ff 
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alkiris

I also want to apologize for the unfinished stories, and for any stories that disappeared over time. If I took something down, it was usually because I couldn’t stand looking at it anymore. I hated it, rewrote it in my head a hundred times, picked apart every sentence until opening the document just made me tired. Some of those stories stopped feeling like mine long before I removed them.
          
          Right now I want to spend whatever energy I still have being around the people who love me outside of a screen. My family. My girlfriend. My friends. The people who know me when I’m not posting or writing or trying to keep up with expectations. If recovery is possible, I want to give myself that chance. And if things stay difficult, then at least I gave my time to the people who truly matter to me.
          
          I really did love writing here. I’m grateful for every person who read my stories, waited for updates, left comments, shared excitement with me, and stayed around for as long as you did. Making people happy through writing was honestly all I ever wanted from this account, and knowing I managed to do that for even a little while means more to me than I can explain properly.
          
          Thank you for sticking around for a year. 
          
          See you later.
          
          (If I have any chapters remaining I'll post them eventually. And, if there's anything you REALLY want back up I'll take it into consideration.)
          
          2/2

EliminatedPlayer001

@alkiris get well soon author, we'll pray for your recovery:(
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moosefic

@alkiris you are an amazing writer! so proud that you've tried you're best to be consistent even when not feeling ur best, we all appreciate you! Rest well, and get better soon 
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idkpplkipo

Get well soon buddy ❤️
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alkiris

I’ve spent the last few months trying to figure out how to say this without sounding distant or dramatic or like I’m disappearing overnight. I kept thinking if I just pushed a little longer, finished a few more things, forced myself through one more chapter, maybe I could leave quietly after wrapping everything up the way I wanted.
          
          But the truth is that I learned that I have a chronic illness, and little by little it has started taking over parts of my life I used to move through so easily. At the same time, my mental health has been getting harder and harder to carry. Some days I sit down at my desk and stare at the screen for an hour before even opening a document. Other days I can’t stay in the chair long enough to write anything at all.
          
          For a while I kept trying anyway.
          
          I think part of me didn’t want to let this go because this account meant a lot to me once. Writing here used to feel exciting. Comforting. I loved getting ideas at 2 in the morning and rushing to put them down before they disappeared. I loved seeing people react to scenes the same way I imagined them in my head.
          
          But somewhere along the way it stopped feeling like that.
          
          1/2

alkiris

I’m gonna start posting faster, so I can at least finish shut it down in time. I wanted to finish my ongoing stories, but I don’t think I can anymore.

alkiris

@cheerrizzz would stay if I could
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cheerrizzz

@alkiris whyyy Don't abandon us like that man.It's fine to take long breaks but dont SHUT IT DOWN
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alkiris

enjoy the update :) sorry for taking so long

mmjrrg

thanks for the update pookie bear for president
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moonchild77

Don’t worry about it queen  do it on your own time, this update is perfect as always. Bear for president!!!
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