Frankly, taking this break lifted a huge weight that I had been carrying on my shoulders. I no longer had to juggle editing, writing, and creating the story covers, while also ensuring the plot was correct, all while managing my own obligations. I was staying up late into the night, running on small amounts of sleep, just staring at my computer screen. I finally realized that I was stressing myself out, and that not uploading was better for my mental health.
If you've been following me for a while, you know that I've been uploading multiple days in a row and posting a lot. That was because, as a reader, I understand the reader's position when an author takes days, months, or years to upload their work. And, so I let fanfiction take over my life.
But I'm no longer doing that. Initially, I never intended to stay here long; it was in my description for a while, "not here for long." Well, that day has come. I knew that one day this would become less enjoyable and more of a burden, and, unfortunately, it has reached this point.
I'm currently deciding whether to remove my work from the internet. Or, leave this account active with the works still up, but do not maintain it or upload any more content. Or, figuring out if I'm just being dramatic and should continue uploading. I'm just tired. If my work is going to continue to burden me with my thoughts of it still being publicly accessible, then it has to go. I refuse to have to continually validate my own writing process. Whether you want to believe me or not is up to you.
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