alonelysappytree

My birthday motherfuckerrsssssss!!!!! 
          	
          	-s.N

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I passed my second English prelim boys!!!!! I got 35/40 which is about 88%, so a high A by SQA standards. Also my teachers told me that taking both prelims and my folio piece into account I would get like a 67-69% final grade which is so close to an A. So yeah I might actually pass Nat 5 English !!!! 
          
          -s.N

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(There is supposed to he clapping emojis lmao)
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-74 words to cut in my essay and done 
          -Got to find a graph, compare it, do some underlaying physics and write a proper evaluation/conclusion and then write up report under exam and timed conditions 
          -Got another report which I have to do underlaying chemistry, compare my graph and another as well as write evaluation/conclusion and then write it up in exam and timed conditions 
          -Then I got two maths papers, calc and non calc 
          -then I start revising for my exams at the end of April/entirety of march. 
          
          Jesus fucking christ.
          
          Strike me down rn 
          
          Or yk, give me some hopeful inspiration/quality sleep
          
          — s.N

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Oml this is the first slightly warmer and sunny day in like two months ❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️ <3333333333 
          God it feels amazing to have some sun after ages of it just being cloudy and rainy and driech- just feeling like where it’s shady there is a little less heat, it’s amazing. Ive got so much to do but god it feels like the best break ever 
          
          -S.N

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I depressed like icarus and now I don’t feel like doing anything because we all end someday, and I don’t want to have to die. Not to say that I wouldn’t like to die, I would quite like to die- I would just like it to be my choice to die and not an inevitable. I just have to tell myself that the amount of time we live for makes it worth it. I just wish after it there was some way to watch. 
          
          I can wear a cross all I like, but I wish I truly believed, so I had some comfort for these moments rather than eternal damnation to fuck all and to nothing because I no longer exist but I can’t make that thought any better because I can’t explain it further.
          
          Damn, I hope there is something, though I think I know there’s not. How I’d love the comfort. 
          
          -S.N

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I’m about to rant and hope Wattpad doesn’t delete my writing because it’s over the character limit- but only tell me that when I am press ‘post’ and then just delete my fucking message! I’m a little mad at it if you couldn’t tell.

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Okay, phew rant over. Gotta get that off my chest.
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The main three points Im trying to make are these: we don’t have the infrastructure to support massive changes in car ownership and repairs, these zones don’t do as they plaster and finally that it’s obvious that our politicians aren’t doing it because it’s good for anything but their status. 
            
            After all, isn’t it great to see the wider picture and be seen as a hero than to be a hero in the nitty gritty of it all? You get the fame and the funding and hope when it feels good, not on the grounds of it working.
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Let’s go back to our amazing and lovely and totally not fucking eejit politicians. They are not in it for the long run. Most will focus on things that will propel them into high places within their short time in lead of whatever sector they are with. They are like most humans who Wish for power- they shouldn’t fucking have it. So what if kids die and the world is more polluted anyway, as long as these statistics look good- we can say we are doing well and we can gain all the positives and then these people will take charge and all these things will go wrong and be fucked up, and they get blame, whether or not they actively did it. So what if the poorest without help can’t afford to switch cars, or charge the cars? Just tell them to loan one and steal their neighbours or something- we all need a little debt in our lives. Fuck ownership, we need people to understand everything in their hands is temporary and that we are currently the best leadership and world that there could be and we are making progress towards Net zero targets (finally, but besides the point)! [notice how it’s nothing to do with global warming or climate change or the general problem or general causes- it’s about one fucking problem that we could have done much better and simpler and with less repercussions.]
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