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alright. im here to vent , im sorry and you can scroll past this
so, i have this friend. they have anger issues and we were good friends: key word, were.
they have these anger issues so that if they even get a little bit pissed it can lead to friendships ending: thats what happened to me, several times. actually, too many to count.
i wanna break down and sob! why? they know my biggest secret. now you may be wondering; why is that bad? because we're in the same school and in just a couple of minutes he could tell everyone.
why is that bad? because i did a thing. a really bad thing that i can't bring myself to say here.
apparently ive made "too many fucking mistakes", when it was just their anger which i didn't even trigger.
i got them back as a friend all the other times. now, you may be wondering now, "well why can't you get them back again?" because i have literally no way of communicating to them.
they mean so fucking much to me as a friend that i could literally have a panic attack over losing them.
god, WHY AM I SO USELESS?! i don't get why anyone likes me, its just weird since i fuck up all the time.
my words are so strong that a simple argument could end a 5-year-(bestfriend)ship. that's what happened once.
i try to prevent it but i can't. i fucking can't. i've had to do this so many times that i have no words to glue this back together.
oh, whats that? that, over there in the bottom right corner. oh. i've almost reached the letter limit. well, i guess i can't write anymore. bye, i guess..?
