alttttttt

okk i have something to say
          
          im so greatful that im able to watch my favorite artists perform their concerts even when i dont have tickets or cant go through the option of livestreams
          
          and if its the best i can get ill still watch it
          
          however 
          
          i firmly believe that if you are going to livestream you should not scream all the words at the top of your lungs
          
          while im eternally greatful
          
          id rather watch random parts of the concerts on Instagram later rather than listen to you scream over the artist
          
          i understand i could have nothing to watch and just have to deal with it but at the same time i dont think you should stream if your gonna make the people watching unable to enjoy it
          
          ALSO
          
          i also dont believe you should buy tickets just to livestream
          
          this may be confusing lol

3 olivia albums means
          
          sour is the oldest 
          
          you seem pretty sad for a girl so in love is the youngest
          
          and guts is the middle child
          
          which is me
          
          i am guts
          
          i am the middle child 

i love harry styles

i havent done my review for the album yet but i literally need more time to process

i think im gonna need a night to process that so im gonna type up an update in the morning because im not functioning well enough rn to form many sentences

im not feeling like myself and nothing ever seems to help
          
          went to the doctor and she said i was fine
          
          but every movie that i see makes me cry
          
          feels like somebody put a weight on my chest
          
          i should talk to a friend 
          
          but i cant get out of bed
          
          my head is spinning and my stomach is sick
          
          say im in love so its hard to admit
          
          i cant eat
          
          i cant sleep
          
          i think your whats wrong with me

IF I COULD GO BACK AND CHANGE THE PAST
          BE A LITTLE BRAVER THAN I HAD
          AND BET AGAINST THE ODDS
          WOULD I STILL BE LOSTTTTT
          EVEN IF I WOKE UP IN MY DREAMS
          WOULD THERE STILL BE SOMETHING IM MISSING 
          IF I HAD EVERYTHING WOULD IT MEAN ANYTHINGGGG
          WELL MAYEB I SHOULD TURN AROUND AND TAKE THE OTHER ROAD OR MAYBE IM JUST LOOKING FOR WHATEVER I ALREADY KNOWWWWWW 
          IM JUST WONDERINGGGG

so glad i claimed whats wrong with me

i just saw this pin of harry styles that didnt even have his whole face in it but it was like half of his face and he was playing the guitar and it was specifically kinda focused on like his arm and hand and the like veins in his hand and he had his sleeves rolled up and you could see his tattoos and pinterest said '322 people have saved this pin in the last 7 days' 
          
          I KNOW WHAT YOU 322 PEOPLE ARE
          
          I KNOW WHAT YOU ARE
          
          YOUR NOT SLICK
          
          
          (did i also save this pin after seeing it?)
          
          (yes. yes i did.)
          
          (but that is NOT a crime)

im so exhausted you have no idea