shame. well, shame as a topic and also it's a shame that i deleted so much of my own work. stuff that came from me.
i used to have a bunch of announcements on here but i was so embarrassed about the little things---like that i didn't know how to spell certain words or that i said something that i wish i didn't say---so i deleted them all. same thing on youtube, too. anything i was ashamed of i tried so hard to erase from the face of the earth. but that's not a good thing, is it? we should try to embrace the ugly parts of ourselves, even if we don't hold onto them with the same tenacity as before.
i wish those announcements were still here so i could remember the kind of person i used to be.
i wish i didn't delete the songs i was ashamed of so i could see how far i've come.
i wish i could learn about these parts of myself that i hid, even from myself.
it's a shame, really
