October 14, 2015
Here is my explanation:
Half of this past summer break was taken up by summer school—during which I had no motivation to write anything. After that, I had about four days off spent feeling exhausted before I went around Europe and had a family reunion—obviously writing just wasn't a main priority. Like before I had about four days before school started, which I spent feeling exhausted and wishing I could go back to Europe and forget about school.
Now comes the messy part—also known as school. Basically, I started high school (an EXTREMELY academically demanding one at that), on August 24th, and since then I've been slammed with homework, tests, and quizzes. This is in part because of my idiotic idea to take all Pre-AP core courses as well as course meant for two levels above the one I am currently at.
I've been having a lot of issues with focusing on my homework (not even MUSIC helps) as well, which leads me to procrastinating and staying up until ungodly hours. I feel as though my inability to concentrate goes deeper than typical procrastination, and it's really making life tough for me. Until I figure out what’s going on, it’s going to be a bumpy, sleep-deprived road.
For example, I had a long weekend two days ago and I was planning to do all my homework Sunday, then relax and write Monday. But, surprise, surprise, I procrastinated until Monday, and found myself staying up until 3:20 a.m., meaning I got less than two hours of sleep that day. I feel like I gained no sleep or energy during the long weekend.
I had to go to school and then come home and do homework and study for the PSAT. Today, I took the PSAT and I feel completely drained, but I have bucket loads of homework and two tests to study for, which are both tomorrow, in which case I don’t have a choice but to get my head straight.
It hasn’t just been Wattpad I’ve been neglecting since school started: it’s everything. See you all soon.
Lots of love,
- astelle xx
(Part III of III)