@amihoho
Fuck, and I hate how I'm so fucking open Abt everything.
Ah shit, I accidentally deleted last post and I'm to lazy to type it all again :cryemoji: but just to summarize (and I'm gonna leave the vent aside, no one needs that) , it's pretty ok-ish. Life Is pretty ok-ish. Still pretty bad, still can't really handle it, but still kinda tolerable. I'm months clean from sh (I forgot how long), which I'm very happy with. I'm panaroace and hypersexual (long story for another time), and I have haphephobia (sorry if this is confusing u, me too). I have a platonic crush, let's call her sov for now. I'm genderfluid and pronouns are she/ they. Hella adhd, and I think I have an ed. School is shitty but fine, made alot of friends and I'm overwhelmed, weirded out, and uncomfortable with ppl saying they like me and have a crush on me (I don't even know why, I'm fucking ugly). Doing great in my classes, having average grades of 95 (in my grading system.). I wanna get therapy so bad. Plspsls hkskslwkw. Anyways, I want to type more but still is all for now cus I'm gonna go on another hiatus for mental and physical health reasons and I just wanted to check in on everyone here, and as I said, it's kinda silly of u guys still using Wattpad. Just wanted to let everyone know I'm fine, and if you all are fine. Don't be afraid to ask for help, talk to anyone on your trust. All of u stay safe, and don't be like me. Love, Riel</3
@amihoho holy shit idk how to respond to that im extremely bad at comforting but im sorry that’s happening to u :(
@amihoho Riel, dont worry, I might not know what you're really going through irl, but just know that we're always here if you need to talk. You might feel scared, but that's a normal response to that, I understand, I'm not sure how to respond, but trust is something big, it takes long to build but seconds to break. Independence is nice, but remember that there are times you can hang on to someone for support. I can understand that what is happening is really hard for you to take, especially since you're young, but please remember to endure it. You're so strong Riel, you can endure a lot. There are times you can cry, it's normal, let it out, punch the pillow if you have to. Is there any way you can tell the authorities about what had happened? And it's a serious thing Riel, you can't keep it bottled up or it will nag at you in the future. Please Riel take care of yourself. I love you, please stay strong, drink water, eat well, and take care of yourself
@Just_Lolli I don't really have time to type a good response rn but lolli I'm scared and terrified. I don't trust anyone, not even my own family and my best friend. Everyone that I have loved let me down and Im scared they'll do it again and I have to depend on myself only,,, but I appreciate it if ur just making me feel slightly better abt all this.
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Oh just oh god, I was so depressed and dramatic back then wasn't I? Ik you all are prolly like "u disappeared with no saying" I'm so sorry, just kinda had to drop my phone and stuff and relax, fix my mental and physical health.
Life is so much better now, I am honestly so happy. No more mess, no more problems (there still is but it's not something I can't handle now). I do feel a bit guilty for everything. I won't be online on Wattpad because honestly, hear me out—i got AO3, google, twt, and c.ai (wattpads ok, but understand that AO3 is better imao) I will still keep in contact tho. I hope everythings all and well for everyone here, love you guys :)
@amihoho HIII RIEL It's okay, you dont need to apologise! Everyone goes through tough times! I'm so glad that you are better now! And that your problems have turned into something you can handle, I'm proud of you<33333 It's fine if you arent as active here as before, times change after all! And you have your own preferences! I hope everything is all and well for you aswell! Ilyt Stay safe, stay healthy, drink water, eat well and sleep well hear me? <333333333333333333
Hey there! Been a while hasn't it?
How are you doing? I hope things are going well for you<3
What’s ur disc
Hi i love you
So....tired.fnwjkeks I haveg't slrept in like 3 dqys and itd curretluy 11:51 pm
My bday today and I got gifts and 2k money
If u were a chocolate bar I would tear u and eat u up ;)
