aminaminoxa

wow, Please tell me the last message wasn't that long, I felt like I was typing for only 30 seconds! Wow, just WOW!

Feelings are so confusing, don't you think? Especially if you're bipolar. One second, you're so happy and feeling like you're on seventh sky, the other, you become so sad and the tears stream down your face because your mom forgot to close your window. But how do you actually know that what you're feeling is exactly what you think you're feeling? How is a feeling different from the other? I remember once, I was dancing in my room, and I hit my face HARD on the wall, I didn't know what I was feeling, was it rage? did I find it funny? Was I feeling stupid? I think feelings are some sort of game your mind plays on you. So, How do you recognize a feeling from the other? How do you know it's love? What is love? There are different scenarioes of how people fell in love with each other, but if love is the same feeling for everyone (you know butterflies and all that shit) why does it have to be in different cases? why some fall in love from the first sight, while other fall in love with people they've been living around for a long time but only realized they loved them after a period after? Why do we love? If love was real, do we actually value it?   If Love was this precious feeling that has big effet on people's lives, then I find it hard to accept that people actually value love. I don't know why I chose love for an example, maybe for the lack of love i have felt in my life, it makes me sad. There we go again about feelings. You see, they don't make sence, one feeling leads to the other, if not it leads to an action that leads to another feeling, another move my mind made in his game to be exact. That's why I don't believe in love, or hapiness, or sadness, or rage, or loneliness or any feeling for that matter. I don't know, it's just something that keeps eating me alive, i want to find answers! Please, if anyone has a say in this subject, then please, i am all ears, you're free to voice your thoughs, and for all my followers (who are 5 by the way), I'm working on a novel that is a Mystery/thriller/action kind of novel, and don't worry this isn't how I normally write. This is just me uncovering my thoughts to create a conversation :) if there are any typos, I apologise for I hate when people make loads of grammar mistakes and bitch about how people are complaining about them and not paying attention to the text itself. So, bye :)