amysticmess

Thanks for the follow :)

Sorry I haven't been posting a lot, I've been really busy with school and exams so I haven't had the time but I will try to release more chapters. In the meantime I've had an idea for a new book with one continuous plot. 
          
          A new necromancer is trying to reap their first soul. They ask for their soul instead of insulting they must guide the soul to the next life. The soul refuses to go and carry on to the next life but they see how lost the necromancer is and chooses to stay by their side and guide them to be better. 
          
          How about it? I was thinking of making it boyxboy and I still need to figure out the bigger plot and names but would you guys be interested? I've already thought up the necromancer's personality but I still need to figure out the souls personality. Would you guys read it? 
          
          Let me know what you think in the comments my loves. Have a great day. 

I've also been trying to figure out my sexual and gender identity recently. I've came out as bisexual just over a year and a half ago but it took ten attempts to make my sister notice who told my family because they didn't listen. My mother and older sister are bi but now i think im pansexual because i don't care what gender my (hopefully ) future partner is. Also my family makes fun of gender fluid or non binary people but since the age of 12 (I'm 15 almost 16) I've never completely felt like a girl. So I'm trying to figure out if I'm gender fluid but I'll never come out to my family because i know they will hate me. 
          Im just so lonely and done with everything. I've never wanted a partner in my life but now i want one, i don't know how right to about it or even find people i may like. I don't speak to many people and i speak to online friends more than irl people. Im an introvert with suspected anxiety and I've always been very independent. Im just confused and i want someone that wont use, hurt, or abandon me. Thanks for reading if you did, please comment ways i could come out to my friends if i am gonna figure out if im pan and gender fluid. 
          
          ~amysticmess

Okey my loves, quick lil' rant. 
          First im going back to school in just over a week (on the 6th of September) and I'm freaking out. I'm worried about everything and just even seeing that many people. I'm worried I'll have to run into old bullies and this one creep that stalked me until lockdown hit.  He's in my class btw and i sit next to him. I have an insane fear of authoritive figures and to be surrounded by teachers is a no go and im getting a couple new teachers who are male and I've almost always had bad experiences with male teachers and I've lost one of the only teachers that i didn't fear because im not in her class anymore.  
          The whole school system is sexist and because I'm a cis female I'm expected to have long hair.  I wanted an undercut and to keep the half of my hair longer and my mum said yes but now us so close to school she said no. I went over the school rules and it said that i could have it but my mum thinks I'll get suspended for a few weeks. I just want to be able to be myself. I changed my mind because of the undercut situation and wanted the hairstyle called vomitboyx but my mum said no and told me that she "didn't want a mop on my head". I've only just been able to start buying the clothes that i like and i just want to change my appearance since I've always hated how i look and bully throughout my whole childhood never changed the hatred but now I'm not allowed to change myself the way i want to. Its messed up that we have to live in a sexist society. 
          
          Pt2 coming soon 
          
          ~amysticmess 

Please share this around, this is happening so educate yourself as much as possible. 
          https://www.wattpad.com/story/281639054

Hey everyone, if you have read my latest book, character comfort, then I just wanted to say
          Firstly, thank your for reading and voting, it gives me motivation just seeing that people have read my books and it makes me really happy.
          Second, please if you have any requests do let me know on the request page and if I know the character well enough then I'll write it. 
          Thirdly, I've been off school ill recently and no teachers have me work so I've got lots f work to do on catch up and regular home work which is mainly massive projects so that being said, updates will he slow but I will try to write whenever I can. 
          
          As always stay happy and safe ❤ 
          
          -killingmesoftly2017

Thanks for voting on my story!