To everyone who follows me and to others who decides to see this message.
This is my final message and my final goodbye. My 20th birthday is in 4 days and I can't do it. I want to die young and I can't step into full adulthood in the same position I was and am for over 10 years now. Tried everything, pills, therapy, meetings with psychiatrists even spending weeks in mental unity, nothing helped and even doctorsare not optimistic with my condition ever getting better. The light behind my eyes is taken and gone for too long and unfortunatley I can't carry on. To all of you, I will post and leave my stories here one more time for youto read and atleast to leave smth here from me as a user and writer. I am so sorry for looking like a sick coward, a good for nothing, lazy cow and other who didn'tmature enoughto think rationally and fight, even thoughI did for over 10 years. If someone is going to mcr concert soon and if you have chance, please tell Gerard that I say hi to him and that I really tried. With this, so long and goodnight my little killjoys, keep running:)
anaconda
